Possibly last life update, message to all my social media sites

[Snoofalah]

I was very close to considering myself homeless today. I did the wrong thing, understood my feelings that I would never be welcome in this house, went out and tried to find a homeless shelter to stay at. The only places available were "stay one night and leave" types, and I think I ended up crying in front of 5 different people today. I walked miles in the rain, drenched in the perfect metaphor displaying all my guilt pouring down on top of me, from where I've always been to downtown Minneapolis and back again, my eyes in deep pain from all the desperate weeping.



I wish my family knew how much I appreciated everything they've done for me. I wish I wasn't so ill-tempered and could voice my concerns, but I end up being so uncomfortable because I always expect the worst to happen. I don't want to end up in the hospital, because I hate feeling like that's where I belong. The problem is, I don't know where I belong. I don't want to belong in the first place, and I would have decided to leave indefinitely had I not run into a good friend in the center of Minneapolis. For now I remain where I always have been: homeless, but not house-less. Regretful, yet not having the courage to say so.



Now is the time I leave the internet entirely. I don't like knowing that everyone I've known is living such happy lives without me in them, though I'm truly glad they are where they deserve to be. I only ask that you all try to forget me while I try to live my own life here, with a roof over my head but not a single place to hang my heart. Please forget all the morbid notes and the desperation in my messages to you. Ignore the love notes I've kept hidden from you in school and how much I miss you. You have all been very wonderful to me, and I am very thankful for it all, yet I deserve absolutely none of it. You need to be happy with the people that matter, of which I do not categorize myself with. My place is tutoring for $4/hour and nowhere else.

[maks]

not reading that but I think we deserve better than a form letter

[Autistic Spectrum]

Snooflah is prob a maks alt but im gonna go with it and call snooflah a faggot anyways

[maks]

you think everyone is my alt

[Autistic Spectrum]

Idk u have had random backround posters alts from 2007

[maks]

maybe you're my alt did you ever think about that

[Desolation]

didnt read

[Autistic Spectrum]

Only alt i have is my battery bits account

[Desolation]

hilarious!

[internutt]

ur cock is fcked up. why are u viewing this thread?

[Desolation]

Wow I was being mean itt sorry all I let my emotions get the best of me

[Autistic Spectrum]

I was very close to considering myself homeless today. I did the wrong thing, understood my feelings that I would never be welcome in this house, went out and tried to find a homeless shelter to stay at. The only places available were "stay one night and leave" types, and I think I ended up crying in front of 5 different people today. I walked miles in the rain, drenched in the perfect metaphor displaying all my guilt pouring down on top of me, from where I've always been to downtown Minneapolis and back again, my eyes in deep pain from all the desperate weeping.



I wish my family knew how much I appreciated everything they've done for me. I wish I wasn't so ill-tempered and could voice my concerns, but I end up being so uncomfortable because I always expect the worst to happen. I don't want to end up in the hospital, because I hate feeling like that's where I belong. The problem is, I don't know where I belong. I don't want to belong in the first place, and I would have decided to leave indefinitely had I not run into a good friend in the center of Minneapolis. For now I remain where I always have been: homeless, but not house-less. Regretful, yet not having the courage to say so.



Now is the time I leave the internet entirely. I don't like knowing that everyone I've known is living such happy lives without me in them, though I'm truly glad they are where they deserve to be. I only ask that you all try to forget me while I try to live my own life here, with a roof over my head but not a single place to hang my heart. Please forget all the morbid notes and the desperation in my messages to you. Ignore the love notes I've kept hidden from you in school and how much I miss you. You have all been very wonderful to me, and I am very thankful for it all, yet I deserve absolutely none of it. You need to be happy with the people that matter, of which I do not categorize myself with. My place is tutoring for $4/hour and nowhere else.

ii still don't believe your a real person

[maks]

ur cock is fcked up. why are u viewing this thread?

I hope he's writign an update I can't wait to not read it

[Autistic Spectrum]

tutor.me for.4ndollors Ns hour rmrech me.tonspell

[Autistic Spectrum]

accept.my.friend request snooflah

[Autistic Spectrum]

or I'm gonna.cut your tutoring rate to 3.50

[Snoofalah]

I've come a long way since then.

[Autistic Spectrum]

I bet they pay you 5 dollars an hour.now

[maks]

dear diary watched someone die tonight

[Autistic Spectrum]

I'm so glad snooflah is not a background poster anymore, owning lisa and lily Kent and bev.was.getting tiresome, now snooflahs here.and I can make him fell terrible too

[Snoofalah]

Why? What do you get out of causing others pain intentionally? I came here to catch up with the old crew from the YTMND days. I haven't wronged you.

[Autistic Spectrum]

if you add me to your friends list then we.will be friends .until then you are my mortal rubycalaber.com enemy

[Simio]

Hi bob!

[internutt]

Why? What do you get out of causing others pain intentionally? I came here to catch up with the old crew from the YTMND days. I haven't wronged you.

ungh just ignore him. men are always jealous of other men posting here. ur daughter must be so cute. i imagine things are looking up in your life since posting that one thread?

[Snoofalah]

if you add me to your friends list then we.will be friends .until then you are my mortal rubycalaber.com enemy

Lets become friends and then I'll add you to my friends list.

[Snoofalah]

ungh just ignore him. men are always jealous of other men posting here. ur daughter must be so cute. i imagine things are looking up in your life since posting that one thread?

Yes, thank you. I found a steady job and a great apartment right near work, and I've had a few acting gigs here and there too.

[internutt]

Yes, thank you. I found a steady job and a great apartment right near work, and I've had a few acting gigs here and there too.

thats good. u just gotta go with the flow. in my korean language there is a saying " 가나다 아기좆너무 작다" i hope it give you a good luck in happiness

[Autistic Spectrum]

take monde off your friends ends list or add me, you can't have.it both ways snooflah

being positive leads to positive things happening.in life, snooplah

[Autistic Spectrum]

please tell me about your last acting gig