i really think i know how the vampires in twilight felt since i started eating healthy...
first i did it cuz the other food was not healthy
then i got the habit
now i sit with the anguish at times, but set in the ways when i think about unhealthy foods...
like, even if i like and want them, i just don't eat them...
example: burgers. as a recovering fatbitch, i used to eat burgers, and now, even if i'm like "a burger sounds good", like a dog with a shock collar, i just can't eat one.
just like how edward survived on animal blood and really wanted to drink that boring bitch's blood, and she smelled so good to him, but he was so good with his self control and sticking to his special diet that she could hang out and even though he wanted to drink her dry, he didn't, and he was ok with the temptation and set on not giving in.
#loosingwait
