i didn't know ewok even liked anime.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
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i didn't know ewok even liked anime.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
I can troll less if you'll tell as much about your mental illness as possible.
Are you sure it's schizophrenia though? Borderlines (but bipolars in general) can manifest schizo traits, Lisa here has BPD and thinks she can talk to her cats and shit, though she's not as crazy as you.
And that's not trolling, just an observation.
You'd be surprised. Do you remember the time he jerked off to some furry porn because it supposedly looked like ctrl?Quote:
Originally Posted by roxtoyz666
I'm like totally sure it's schizophrenia. My voices speak to me all day. I'm disabled for being schizophrenic.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
My voices try to make me arrogant. Mostly my schizophrenia involves me burning my voices to death with fire so i can cause him pain.
For me my schizophrenia are like tiny people that i just burn to death when they talk.
Yeah i remember.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
Yeah i remember.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
So it's just voices? Do you hallucinate? Do you think you have it in you to murder?
Do you think you're an anime girl deep down?
It's not really just voices. For me my schizophrenia is a lot like an experience. My voices are like alive to my perception. However what i do to deflect my schizophrenia i find more interesting than the schizophrenia. There's no way of really telling if i am hallucinating or not sometimes.
So what do you see?
No. i just like animation women more than normal women because i am abstinent. So mostly though i am not interested in murder. My actions are my own.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
I've seen shit like headcrabs before walking around my house eating paper off the floor.Quote:
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Like i wrote something on a paper and i tore it up. and i saw a headcrab like walking across the floor eating the paper and the paper was like disappearing and shit. it was so realistic and shit i tohught it was real. Other than that i have no fucking clue.
I've seen headcrabs a few times. Like visually. Most things feel like a hallucination to me even if they aren't. But to see an actual thing be one. i've only ever seen like headcrabs before. This happened a few times over a few months.
Yeah, I expected stuff like video game hallucinations. Do you see stuff about the forums? Have you ever hallucinated shit like living out a Michael Cera movie with tff?
I'm not sure when i first became schizophrenic i thought i was telepathic so i've spoken to almost everyone from the internet before telepathically because i didnt really get it wasnt real. For me circlejerking is more powerful internally because my head is one giant circlejerk much like on here or alol. It's just like funnier and shit because i keep burning my voices to death for being baby trolls.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
Also, clarify "So mostly though i am not interested in murder." Do you have an interest in murder or not? Do you think you could ever lose control of yourself and kill?
i used to think i was clairvoyant too when i was high on crystal meth and schizophrenic. So a few times i thought the cops were like the zombie cops from Half life 2. A lot of my hallucinations have been or were like related to half life 2 or something.
Did you know ctrl has a hairy asian bush?Quote:
Originally Posted by roxtoyz666
What were the cops around for? Did you try to crowbar them?
No as far as it goes for me the shit my voices say to me i could never acknowledge as real or "suggestive". So mostly i just make fun of my voices for being inferior to me. I obey the law in all ways because i went to county jail once because i didnt go to court for trespassing once when i was crystal meth addict so i went to county for court for a warrant they had for my arrest. So after that i stopped breaking the law in all ways because i didnt wanna go back there. I was only there to go to court so i was only there for a week or two and i was like In the mental ward so they were giving me my mental hospital medications and shit in jail so it wasnt hardcore but i never broke the law again.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
Not even shit like piracy.
Tell me more about the circlejerking, I remember how big that was, it was like watching a virtual gay orgy unfold. What purpose did it serve? Why did you call it something negative like a circlejerk?
When i was on crystal meth my mom moved out and just left me there so i was just like chilling in our abandoned apartment smoking crystal meth with the internet on my computer and like after 4-5 days the cops came to bust me and shit for trespassing. But like i was smoking crystal meth and i was looking in the hole of my meth pipe and the smoke like started showing my a video of charles manson being walked into prison and then like i could see outside of my apartment door on the 2f patio. which it was an apartment but the patio was only for my apartment which was on the 2f. so the patio was part of the apartment. but i saw the cops standing outside of my door in my meth pipe and they were like the mawmen zombie cops from half life 2. and like i knew it was real or some shit but i thought i was telepathic and psychic because i was schizo and high on meth so i thought the cops were outside my house but that they wouldnt come in because i was like telepathic so i thought i was talking to them. But right after this started happening the cops kicked the door in and it turns out there were 2 cops arresting me for trespassing just like how i had seen in my crystal meth pipe when i thought i was hallucinating. they never caught me with meth though they got me for trespassing because my room was messy so i just threw the pipe in a corner and they never caught me for it.Quote:
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You should start a blog on this or something, it might make you an even better poster than you ever were.
I'm not sure really. The only way i can deflect my voices is with comedy or something clever.Quote:
Originally Posted by UPGRAYEDD
You must be bombarded by them constantly.Quote:
Originally Posted by roxtoyz666
So you ended up in an abandoned apartment with your mom? Did you bring all the boxsets with you?
No the apartment is where me and my mom lived but she moved out without me because of the meth so i just stayed there until i got in trouble for trespassing.