I feel like I'm dying,

Hello everyone. I hate to rendezvous with you all in such an awkward situation but I may be about to die.

It all started about 6 hours ago right after I smoked weed. I was alone in the car.

At some point I felt a pop in either the lower neck or upper spine right beneath the neck. Or maybe it was my inner right shoulder? Hard to pinpoIsn't because it caught me off guard and I was not expecting. Maybe it was all three. Well, I can sit here debating and dying or I can just say some shit popped out of joint and sent my body into a panic.

6 hours. 6 hours I just spent in unbelievable bodily hell. Having to only move at a fucking sloth pace trying desperately to pinpoint what exactly I needed to do to realign.

Cars outside spending past. Plane engines roaring above me.

At One point I surrendered and gave into death.

What was it like? It was fine. It was just fine. It was death. You'll see it one day too.

I was forced to contort like Emily Rose at yoga glass to try and find a way to push my spine upward despite being stuck in A CAR that would be better off being a TRUCK. I felt many joint cracks and none felt good at all. For entire hours I was frozen. One slight misstep in movement and be met by excruciating pain.

I became cold but could not cover myself. I began to feel my arms chill and then go numb from cold.

At one point I literally carried on believing I was going to lose an arm but live.

If you don't hear from me again, I literally died.

It's possible I'll carry on, but maybe not much longer because I'm fatily flawed. A lifetime of school sports and hard drinking have caught up.

Anyway, while I'm still living I'd like to say thanks for bring hospitable here. I'm glad I have people like Lisa and Lily who literally made me feel good for the last 4 days just by being themselves.

I do enjoy posting here. I like forums.

I like turtles.

You can't die, what about my rep?

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

please ban me

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I told you before new kid, satan doesnt like it when people mess around with his little girl. He already killed 2 and gave another one cancer for doing so

lisa is into dead guys

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Originally Posted by Dustin

lisa is into dead guys

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go pick on some one else.

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Originally Posted by Poopalew

go pick on some one else.

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Originally Posted by Dustin

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You still don't get it

I'm still here. Made it into work but they sent me home. "Home".

At one point while frozen and struggling to breathe there were flies crawling into my open mouth and nose. I felt like a literal corpse. It had great impact on my mental stability.

Something is definitely wrong, but I'm still kicking.

I feel like a different person today. A night of death waiting at your side will do that.

Thank you Lily for the nice PM.

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Originally Posted by Poopalew

You still don't get it

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Originally Posted by Dustin

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Feel better, Broseph.

New kid the complaining about physical and mental health problem gimmicks are already taken, so is the homeless gimmick

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Originally Posted by Wendy <3

New kid the complaining about physical and mental health problem gimmicks are already taken, so is the homeless gimmick

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physical?

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Originally Posted by Wendy <3

New kid the complaining about physical and mental health problem gimmicks are already taken, so is the homeless gimmick

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Is there a gimmick where a member actually cares about this place and posts thoughtful and fun threads? Because I'm the only one here doing that gimmick too. You should be ashamed of this place honestly.

Im sorry that sounded harsh, I'm sure you would understand if you knew the stress I have been through in the last 4 days. I'm sorry. Nonetheless, I have assigned the proper value to this community and I suggest you do the same

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

Is there a gimmick where a member actually cares about this place and posts thoughtful and fun threads? Because I'm the only one here doing that gimmick too. You should be ashamed of this place honestly.

Im sorry that sounded harsh, I'm sure you would understand if you knew the stress I have been through in the last 4 days. I'm sorry. Nonetheless, I have assigned the proper value to this community and I suggest you do the same

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I did post songs from this Goth band

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

Is there a gimmick where a member actually cares about this place and posts thoughtful and fun threads? Because I'm the only one here doing that gimmick too. You should be ashamed of this place honestly.

Im sorry that sounded harsh, I'm sure you would understand if you knew the stress I have been through in the last 4 days. I'm sorry. Nonetheless, I have assigned the proper value to this community and I suggest you do the same

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you're going to have a wonderful time here at rubynet

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

Is there a gimmick where a member actually cares about this place and posts thoughtful and fun threads? Because I'm the only one here doing that gimmick too. You should be ashamed of this place honestly.

Im sorry that sounded harsh, I'm sure you would understand if you knew the stress I have been through in the last 4 days. I'm sorry. Nonetheless, I have assigned the proper value to this community and I suggest you do the same

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If the owner doesn't care, then why should anyone else care? Letting lisa stay here was the demise of this place

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Originally Posted by Dustin

you're going to have a wonderful time here at rubynet

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It's not your fucking biz who I cyber

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Originally Posted by Poopalew

It's not your fucking biz who I cyber

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Originally Posted by Wendy <3

If the owner doesn't care, then why should anyone else care? Letting lisa stay here was the demise of this place

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You say demise but I say beginning. Lisa is unique and stands out in a forum full of trolls, complainers, and posters with bad attitudes. She's exactly what is needed to help facilitate the incoming influx of new members.

You are expendable.

Sorry, not trying to be rude. Just wanted to pass that eye opening statement your way in hopes that it sparks change deep within. Let's all make the decision to put our best foot forward for the betterment of the forum

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

You say demise but I say beginning. Lisa is unique and stands out in a forum full of trolls, complainers, and posters with bad attitudes. She's exactly what is needed to help facilitate the incoming influx of new members.

You are expendable.

Sorry, not trying to be rude. Just wanted to pass that eye opening statement your way in hopes that it sparks change deep within. Let's all make the decision to put our best foot forward for the betterment of the forum

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can't wait till you go through the plugdrugs phase and want to kill yourself after lisa rejects you

are you the dude that lives in his car that was donny's irl friend?

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

You say demise but I say beginning. Lisa is unique and stands out in a forum full of trolls, complainers, and posters with bad attitudes. She's exactly what is needed to help facilitate the incoming influx of new members.

You are expendable.

Sorry, not trying to be rude. Just wanted to pass that eye opening statement your way in hopes that it sparks change deep within. Let's all make the decision to put our best foot forward for the betterment of the forum

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let me spark my dick deep within your asshole :monkeyfuck:

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

Is there a gimmick where a member actually cares about this place and posts thoughtful and fun threads? Because I'm the only one here doing that gimmick too. You should be ashamed of this place honestly.

Im sorry that sounded harsh, I'm sure you would understand if you knew the stress I have been through in the last 4 days. I'm sorry. Nonetheless, I have assigned the proper value to this community and I suggest you do the same

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no, because that's a shitty boring gimmick

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Originally Posted by Visual Leader

You say demise but I say beginning. Lisa is unique and stands out in a forum full of trolls, complainers, and posters with bad attitudes. She's exactly what is needed to help facilitate the incoming influx of new members.

You are expendable.

Sorry, not trying to be rude. Just wanted to pass that eye opening statement your way in hopes that it sparks change deep within. Let's all make the decision to put our best foot forward for the betterment of the forum

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This isn't a community, it's a containment field, it's here to protect the rest of the internet from us. We have no use for new posters because they inevitably end up being stupid self righteous faggots like you.

we already have a snoofalah we don't need two of them

maybe if you stay on your high horse long enough we'll forget that you're a homeless alcoholic wigger

Everyone lisa brings here dies within a few years of joining :rofl:

I refuse to listen to maks description of this forum because I haven't seen him make one productive post in 4 days. He's constantly putting others down or complaining aloud. He brings nothing of value or substance to this forum and appears to be stuck in his ways. He's labeled this forum as something that fits his demented mind but I'm here to say this forum can be something more than maks negativity chamber.

There are posters here who are not stubborn and actively trying to create a community. That's a fact whether maks likes to admit it or not. And it threatens him, because he only knows to destroy and is afraid of building, or even learning how to build.

He'd rather this place be bare and dying.

yeah what do I know I've only been here for 12 years

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Originally Posted by Wendy <3

Everyone lisa brings here dies within a few years of joining :rofl:

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one can only hope

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Originally Posted by maks

yeah what do I know I've only been here for 12 years

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Exactly my point. Look what this place has become, all under your watch and your doing.

I'll be here for 12 years, and I'll be able to say this place is better when I leave, because I will have been a bridge to new way of thinking.

Being nice to people and welcoming new members.

I have already began working on being the new welcoming committee here. I will take it upon myself to properly welcome and extend my hand to new members. I will undo the ridiculous unnecessary stress that you put on them.

Real suddle juggalow joe

Put as much effort into getting yourself proper housing as you do trolling IT workers on a backwater internet fourm

No. I will decide my own life and put my priorities where I see fit. Stop trying to persuade me to not put my best foot forward here. You're wasting your time

Get a job and a house wtf

Lol