we are all doomed to failure, each and every one of you
we will never truly reach that goal in the back of our minds that we are all striving for
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we are all doomed to failure, each and every one of you
we will never truly reach that goal in the back of our minds that we are all striving for
i read "Kanye West" and i paused the video
my goal is to be as comfortable as possible until I die and so far I'm on the right track
kill meQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
maybe your life would improve if you tried some new things. Like R&B.
when it comes to music, i try really hard to experience new things, and i'm always disappointed
literally murder me
just jump at the ground and miss
I had easily the worst 3 days of my life just now and look back at being depressed and saying life sucks and its like nah, life's fine you go through tough stuff but most of the time it's pretty tolerable.
sounds like your life is mostly a negative experience
Not at all, I love life for the most part. But being spoiled we overact to things that make us unhappy.
spoiled? I live in a dilapidated house that people 80 years ago would have called "rough"
I learned long ago not to waste my time giving pep talks to heroin users, nothing I can say will cheer them up like shooting up does so why bother
its true
i never shot up and heroin sucks compared to oxy; H is so cut by the time it gets to you, its barely the equivalent of a few vicodin
and oxy sucks compared to morphine or hydromorphone;
methadone is in a ballpark of its own
life is pretty sweet
my life would be much more enjoyable if the admins would change my avatar
just wait until she leaves youQuote:
Originally Posted by lnopia the great
I can grant your wish - what do you want?Quote:
Originally Posted by lnopia the great
plugdrugs is depressing as heck even maynard would be like man the hell up wuss
try old music that's new to youQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
opiates eventually made me feel the exact same until i quit for a couple months and made a decision never to pick it up againQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
they will steal your soul away. people told me this and i said "bullshit", well i still got a hole in my soul but it's getting smaller all the time
opiates are a demon that sneaks up on you in a much-less obvious way than other drugs; you don't realize what a downward spiral you're in until your hopelessly addicted
no addiction is hopeless, but opiates will take you damned close
no other drug makes you view every other Earthly-pleasure as inadequate compared to the drug's high -- opiates do that perfectly. Nothing in everyday life can hold a candle to an opiate high. How are you supposed to fight that? You can't. Once you've realized it, all you can do is lie to yourself and pretend that you are content with everyday life.Quote:
Originally Posted by blumpkin blownuts
what dose did you get to before kicking? I got to 360mg a day of oxycodone before i painfully had to quit, and i didn't really quit either. Each time I got a pay check, it went straight to oxycodone, so I could be Mr Codone for a day
home isn't pretty, ain't no home for me...
Home in the darkness, home on the highway.. home isn't my way, ain't no home for me
when you detox professionally and honestly work a treatment program, you can pretend less day to day. the littlest things that go right look ten miles tall and you learn not to sweat the things that go wrong. you learn to accept life on life's terms. and then you find that big things start to go your way, because you are healthily & fully engaged with reality. there will still be unavoidable loss and sorrow, but you will be able to get through it without feeling like you gotta numb it out to go on.
i was taking about 200mgEq morphine in the form of opium daily, plus what i thought was 300mg pure codeine that turned out to be an undetermined amount of oxycodone according to my lab work. pisses me off cuz it was about 1/5 the street price of codeine but if i knew it was oc i could've been railing it all that time.Quote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
the opium i was doing was principally morphine citrate over meconic acid, or morphine meconate, depending on my process and the desired duration of effect. i never did a formal assay but i would equivocate an average dose to 200mg morphine sulfate p.o.
why would you want codeine
because it was cheap, i metabolized high amounts, and it was high-dose with no asa/apap
are you people drug addicts?
if foreign pharma co.s could license the manufacture of hc, oc, hm, om etc i would've obviously opted for those instead but i had to make do with what was available for low cost & low risk
yes, recovering addictQuote:
Originally Posted by Lexi Persimmons
plug did you ever take talwin? supposedly it was the strongest opioid i could get overseas but it didn't do alot for me, probably because i didnt want to use a needle
scratch that, bupe was the strongest i could get and it was way too addictive, too mentally depressing at comedown
you know that codeine has a ceiling dose of about 400mg right? and that 300mg of codeine is only equivalent to about 20-40mg of morphine (depending on your body's enzyme levels)Quote:
Originally Posted by blumpkin blownuts