http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Proctalgia_fugax


this is literally the only time the thought of even thinking about thinking about being suicidal crosses my mind ever I've never googled it before and oh boy I was hoping it was just me not being in good enough shape yet somebody had to invest in me before this pain I'm in all the time actually drives me insane and yeah 20 minutes isn't a joke but it hurts so bad you just zone out and both not think and think but think of dying but mostly the pain is so bad you just go on a mental vacation or at least I do this really better go away once. I join the ymca