a) miserable and bored with everything & everyone
b) high/drunk to mask being miserable, but still bored with everything & everyone

i wouldn't feel better if i had a g/f, if i had a ferrari, if i could travel anywhere i wanted, if i could buy anything i wanted (nothing i want to buy), i wouldn't even feel better if i could be dead

guess im just gonna count to a million or something until i fall asleep