maybe it's because a part of you doesn't want it to happen, or your beliefs and expectations on the whole do not allow for it to happen.
What exactly are you hoping to gain out of it?
It is my impression that the paranormal can only happen in a way that coincides with reality; or, the paranormal can not appear as something greater than coincidence.
I've felt the same way, but once the paranormal started to seem actually possible, it terrified me.
