it's in your shadow; take a look at yourself, seriously.

[maks]

Doli kind of talked some sense into me last night, and pointed out that I've been a huge creep for the past 3 months, and I've pretty much just been bothering you for months. I'm going to leave you alone and stop sending you e-mails asking to be my friend again.

he did, huh? you'll stop sending her emails, huh? What about this one? and the angrier one you sent riht after this one?

But look, this is what they always wanted. I wasn't actually a creep to begin with; it was always their goal to split us from being friends, so they just kept insisting anything they thought might do that, and just kept telling you that I was a creep until you started believing them -- and you listened to them. I can't believe you'd follow what a group of people think instead of doing what you think is right, I thought you were way different than that.

Yes, none of this is your fault, nothing that you fuck up is ever your fault

I've known these guys for years. You may think you understand their antics, but you don't. They do lead you along a lot of the time for their own amusement. And that really bothers me that you trusted them over me. Do you really think that's fair? After I was such a good friend to you for so long?

Yeah lisa has no idea she's on a trolling forum

I pretty much had to give up my reputation with all of them because I chose you over them; and you know what? The reason I've seemed like such a big pussy was so I could try and bring both sides together. You think Doli is so attractive for being witty and clever? The guy is a tool. You're actually attracted to that? Someone who treats you like shit instead of someone who actually cares about you? I mean think about it, really think about it, you like him because you think he's one of the popular ones of the group, and you started disliking me for not being the popular one. You're following the crowd, it's fucking stupid, I didn't know you were like that.

Doli is pretty handsome, js. I told you lisa was like that, you didn't listen so now I laugh at your pain.

So you wonder why I'm acting like a little bitch, one reason is because I've been fighting back how pissed off I feel because I can't believe how you're acting.

No it's because you're a little bitch

I ruined all my friendships on that forum for you; I've wasted months of my life now, I feel like an idiot.

You ruined your friendship with me, everyone else already hated you.

Have you honestly forgotten how great of friends we used to be? How can you just block out your memory of me like that?
And even though you deny it, your actions caused my real name to get leaked. You used my real first name on the forum when I didn't want you to, and flag told everyone my full name after that. Do you realize I can not fucking defend myself in arguments now because they'll just turn around and try and ruin me in real life then? So when you were laughing at me in tinychat and felt embarrassed for me when I was apologizing to marks, its because he was recording everything I was saying like a fucking lunatic, and I wanted to get on his good side so he'd just leave me the hell alone. And you wonder why I've been such a pussy.

That's a shame, I was about to accept your apology but now that I know it wasn't sincere...

It's all your choice who you do and don't want to be friends with. But you know it as well as I do, you've done wrong to me.
How can you just ignore someone who wants to be your friend so bad and looks up to you? Especially after you and that person only really had each other for 7 months and would talk like you were in love. Was it all just some strategy of yours? Did you really throw it all away just to make them jealous and get their attention? You're sick, I don't know if you can't see what you're doing or not, but like I've said in the past, it's in your shadow; take a look at yourself, seriously.

If you believed it was her choice you wouldn't have spent all summer trying to force yourself on her.

Please, don't ever do this to a guy again. You broke my heart. Do you get off on that or something? Does it make you feel wanted and popular to mess with a guy's head like that and have him obsess over you?

I'm not obsessed over you, that's all their invention they planted in your head. I'm actually just sad because I lost a best friend and I've been trying to get her back. I'm acting the way I'm acting because normal people don't act like you've been acting.

Yes, the 800 emails you sent begging her to talk to you were planted in her head by us

Whatever this wasn't well written because I get writer's block when my mind is being raped, so I don't expect it to convince you, but I wanted to at least mention all those things, because it makes me sick thinking that you're just going to move on and think everything you've done is okay, I don't want to give you that pleasure.

Christ you're pathetic

So that's that, I am going to leave you alone now. I mean I did my best, I really wanted to be your friend again, and God knows I've tried as hard as I could to be your friend again, but I'd be an idiot if I wasted any more time on this silly bullshit

PS I'm going to send another email immediately after this one so this part is a huge lie.