you have no family, no where to go on the hoildays u are super poor and live a super depressing life and it's not going to get any better because you have so much going against you with your mental illness and your inablity to get treatment for it, that in like 10 years time u will most likely be homeless and aruging with people on the interent from the public libary talking about you have a box u sleep on that a 200 dollor pillow once came in the mail for you