You come here to try and fit in with all the cool people because you're stuck in a highschool mentality. You were most likely bullied as a
child, that explains the lack of self-confidence and your overwhelming desire to feel like you belong to a group. Humans are social animals, it's only natural but at your age it's fucking stupid. 40 years old and still trying to prove to the world that you're "cool" kill yourself. please.