Im 15& just got back home from a "date" theres this guy in my home economics class that I have had a crush on for a long time. He is a senior and I am a sophomore. He is extremely handsome, on sports teams while I am more average at best. He finally invited me on a date after flirting with him in class for a couple months. We got pizza in town, smoked weed, and went to his house. We started making out for like a minute, but then he started undoing my pants. I was very uncomfortable but didnt stop it. I guess its worth noting that I a virgin. I had no intentions of doing anything besides ending this date with a kiss. This is the part that has me fucked up. He took out his dick while we were kissing. He asked me to give him oral, which I have never done either. He started begging, saying I need to return the favor. Every single time I said no, clearly. This is not a case of a grey area, I said no over 10x. He grabbed my neck and was trying to push me down. He eventually stood up took my head and forced me on his dick. I gagged, he came in my mouth and I spit it all out. Ive never even seen a blow job happen I dont even know what I was supposed to be doing, he just kept pushing my head. Then he drove me home. On the way back I was silent and he asked me if I was ok and I just said yes.
And now I am here. Idk. I liked him but I didnt want to go that far and I said so. Do people think this is rape, even if I enjoyed kissing? I said no many times and I dont understand why he would do this? Im mad he didnt listen to me and I hate that this was my first experience with oral. This is not how this works right? This is not normal? Are there rape kits for your mouth? Will people say it doesnt count since I was high? Another girl in school was raped by another guy and evedyone blamed her and she switched schools, I dont want that to be me.
Was this wrong? What do I do?