when you think about it, the reasons everyone decided to hate me are all trivial and dumb

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I was desperate for a female in my life. My past 3 relationships during late 2012-2013 had all ended in a train wreck before i even had sex with the girl.
Horniness overtook me. Desperate for a mate. I decided to fall in love with a girl 12 years older than living on a different contintent.

For some reason, from 19 to about 23, i had this neurosis where cognitive dissonance would always eat away at my ego and sense of confidence, and i rationalized that i have to act weak and without confidence and find a girl that way because if someone only likes me for acting like a cocky douchebag, they are immoral for not liking me when i act sensitive and clingy. I dont know.

For whatever reason, maybe opiate and amphwtamine addiction, or my brain beig damaged from being on many different psychiatric meds for years and then going off them, cognitive dissonance would always seprate me from my ego

So, you know it, i know it, i acted like a big whiney bitch... Although not really that much. I sent some embarassing whiney messages to lisa and thats really it.

What you all actually are pieces of shit. You obsess over the drama in other people's lives over the internet, and then harass them for it. Its not trolling, trolling is misleading someone for comedy through wit. What youre doing is, i dont know, something else.. But what it amounts to is guilting and humiliating people as part of some sociopathic neurosis to find someone lower than you to acquire a feeling of worth or value for yourself

DP is an exception, he likes to play the role of group therapist instead

I dont know, youre all pieces of shit fuck you