A lot of things can happen that are out of your control. I used to work for years until several issues converged and made that impossible. And even if that weren't the case, there are several reasons why there is no reason to apologize for nor explain government money.
Just mak more excuses for being a complete loser who doesnt even try to change his life. Its only a matter of time before you are bac on the streets, raving at people in your dirty hobo clothes. I don't know why you even bother living at all.