seriously, with all the attention I get here, why would I want to kill myself? I'm serious you guys never actually can discuss anything I'm begging you just once, please do me this favor man, tell me why I would want to kill myself when I have a group of people who have dedicated their lives to me, I get more attention from this site than the owner of the site lol, I know that I can keep all of your attention without any effort so I know I can get others' too, ya know? honestly, why would I want to kill myself? why don't you want to kill yourself? are you sure you're not projecting by any chance since all you do is think and post about some random guy in rhode island lol?