i'll be workign again in 2 weeks

[Lisa Claus]

i'd recommend snorting 2mg of 5-AcO-DMT, that's how I picture mortal death though it was totally illusory, and much worse than being alive, in any condition.

also everyone should try OD'ing on opiates to the point where you have to remind yourself to breathe. one time, and no more, because i still haven't forgiven myself for getting addicted to that feeling... everything going black, feeling of being shot out of a gun pointed straight down, incredible warmth without being hot, being stroked with flower petals on every inch of your skin...
if i could do it over though, consequences and all, i would. but from what i understand, once the feeling stops - and eventually it always does - there's no getting it back no matter how long you stopped using it

I have had that experience of having to remind myself to breathe... in fact last time I stopped breathing when I was in shock after my brother bashing me I did so because I decided there was no point to keep breathing, the police knuckled into my chest until I started again and got up screaming and swinging punches.

I have also experienced that after the death of a loved one when I literally did not sleep for 2 weeks and ended up psychotic... although that time I kept breathing and everytime I started to fall asleep and stop breathing I actually woke up and took another breath

but thanks for the advice... I should try ODing on heroin.

I do not even know what 5-AcO-DMT is.