Quote Originally Posted by Lisa Claus View Post
yes Tim, congrats on getting my number

and I had gone into a depressive disturbed slumber this afternoon and awake in a cold sweat from the nightmares I was having of trying to help 2 little street boys get into a youth refuge, I myself spent time in a youth refuge as a child. These boys were like about 8 years old and I couldn;t find the youth refuge and no-one would help, there were a couple of men who wanted to take the boys but I wouldn't let them because I knew they wanted to take them for very bad reasons, so I was sitting under some stairs with the two little boys searching like mad on my phone for somewhere safe to take them and my phone started to go dead and I knew I couldn't leave the boys and was starting to cry because the world was so shit and no-one decent would help them and they were just little boys who couldn't go home because of unspeakable abuse when I awoke in a cold sweat to my phone going off....

You actually called me minutes after that because what actually awoke me was my x b/f texting me... also the reason I went into a depressive disturbed slumber today.... he has quit drugs and wants to marry me and I am pretty fucked up over this guy.... he is not a simple man and I am actually pretty fucked up about him and do not know what to do.... I am scared to marry him lest I get trapped and he takes up drugs again and then I have given up my independence and in some fucked up situation where I am owned and at the mercy of a man who basically could do whatever he liked with me... and I didn't mind him doing whatever he liked with me at first because I thought he was kind of hot, wanted to fully suss him out and kind of liked him and now I'm scared that I'll fall for him... he'll make his way into my life, I'll marry him and then be totally at his mercy which is just a terrofying thought if I no longer have my own independence and have fallen into some trap that I cannot easily escape from because I actually have feelings and are human but I do not trust people very much... however I have already acertained that he is not the worst person I met, has a good heart and PROBABLY wouldn't hurt anyone... however he is pretty fucking smart, like about twice the IQ you have but then that's not hard... but it does mean that I may have met my match... and I'm scared where I'll end up if I get back together with him... his intentions are to marry me... and fact is I am a person, I was attracted to him and somewhere in me I would love some companionship... I'm just scared... scared of the possibility of being led up a garden path I don't know and getting lost there with no hope of return to myself.

How was your day Tim?
ITT: clump confesses of her dreams about 8 year old boys

fuck off and die you fugly pedo bitch