I can't take any more of this

[Lexi Persimmons]

get on cam Madeline. I wanna see you fingering that tight hole.

[always stevey]

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I don't even know how I ended up in this forum.

I have nowhere to go.

My family abused me.

The only person in my life was someone who picked me up off the street battered and bruised and in shock and they turned out to be a ice junky who was using me for what he could. These are not things I want in my life.

I tried really hard to do something worthwhile. In spite of all the shit, not even having a home through highschool and never finishing I went and got myself two degrees when I was 21 and sat an entry exam and was lucky enough to be smart enough yto blitz it in, and that's about the only time in my life where having brain gave me a lift up, I wanted to teach and help children get through school because I never did and spent years before university living in what was hell, a violent man putting me in hospital because frankly I didn't know any better... and I did teach for a couple of years but I've seen too much shit there that I can't deal with and it only took a couple of kicks of the stool out from under me and I just can't... I just can't, I am not emotionally equipped to do that anymore. I got other jobs that wouldn't be as stressfull but when I lost those things just got worse and worse. Now I'm in a situation where junkies pick me up off the street when I'm bashed on xmas day because I'm even more pathetic than them. I've got nothing, nothing anymore and all I can worry about is what will happen to my cat. I'm not on a pension and I am struggling a lot, there is no safety net for me anymore, no family, no-one who cares... just mounting debts of bills that I can barely even pay anymore. I can't understand people at all... I can't understand why they do these horrible things to each other.... an ice junky actually looked good to me because he was the kindest person I had actually met in a really long time.

I don't spend my money on pot... I wish I could like I used to when I had money... it made things seem better. I wish there was somewhere I could take my cat so I knew she would be spoilt and looked after and I could just go quitely die. I had stopped breathing after my brother bashed me and I wish I had just been left to die.... it was easy to die at that point but people had to bring me back just so I could suffer more shit.. why? Why is everything like this? What the fuck kind of place is this and what the fuck kind of people are some of you. Some of you here aren't bad people at all but I just can't stand these pieces of shit, Ic an't stand them here and I can't stand them in the world anymore and I don't think I can fight any of them anymore. There is no help for what I'm going through but I honestly just don't think I lay here and take it anymore.... I just want to die but what will happen to my cat? My cat is the only good and pure thing in my life.

It's obviously true, I have obviously lost my mind but I don't even want my mind back in a world like this, if sane and doing well is doing to people what has been done to me and what I've seen others do even to children then I don't want to be sane, I don't even want to exist in way where I am aware of anything anymore.

What the fuck is this place and what the fuck kind of people are SOME of you? Am I supossed to abuse people, lie, use people to have a good life? Because I don't even want a life anymore. There is literally nothing more I have to offer or give and I can't live in a world like this anymore, I want out. Something bad is going to happen again... I know this feeling... something bad is going to happen... I hope I get to die this time and to the shit people I hope you burn on earth and to the good people, I wish you could be spared the abhorrent things that go on in this world but I at least hope you have comfort and some measure of happiness and I hope you are surrounded by other good people.

[always stevey]

I am not emotionally equipped to do that anymore. I got other jobs that wouldn't be as stressfull but when I lost those things just got worse and worse. Now I'm in a situation where junkies pick me up off the street when I'm bashed on xmas day because I'm even more pathetic than them. I've got nothing, nothing anymore and all I can worry about is what will happen to my cat. I'm not on a pension and I am struggling a lot, there is no safety net for me anymore, no family, no-one who cares... just mounting debts of bills that I can barely even pay anymore. I can't understand people at all... I can't understand why they do these horrible things to each other.... an ice junky actually looked good to me because he was the kindest person I had actually met in a really long time.

[always stevey]

Junkies picked her up off the street last Christmas. Am I the only one giggling with delight?

he says anything and goes to any length to emotionally destroy an internet poster, i think he has a dark obsession with emotional pain or is a sadist, some people are just damaged from day one, theyre usually the ones who grew up fucked up from poor parenting, thats why you get people going out on a weekend consuming alcohol and bashing people, most of them are whacked, waste of a potential cum-shot idiot.
its funny how you cant just go out and have fun without a worry in the world society is fucking lame in some ways.
i wish i was a god, i would totally reveal myself and be like "im the admin you faggot you better not hit on your sister again or im gonna ban you"

in the end of it "trolling" someone can lead to emotional pain, i mean, when you laugh, thats an emotion and about the violence thing its usually fags who were brought up by bigger fags who tried to change them as a child and used force to attempt to change their children which only made their children grow up trying to change other people and not accepting them for who they are and if someones different this faggots personality makes them instantly react inside with frustration and it can end up in a fight. no im not saying i am fucking righteous, or even remotely correct, i am just saying my opinion.
i only have this opinion from reading.

[steveyos]

I don't even know how I ended up in this forum.

I have nowhere to go.

My family abused me.

The only person in my life was someone who picked me up off the street battered and bruised and in shock and they turned out to be a ice junky who was using me for what he could. These are not things I want in my life.

I tried really hard to do something worthwhile. In spite of all the shit, not even having a home through highschool and never finishing I went and got myself two degrees when I was 21 and sat an entry exam and was lucky enough to be smart enough yto blitz it in, and that's about the only time in my life where having brain gave me a lift up, I wanted to teach and help children get through school because I never did and spent years before university living in what was hell, a violent man putting me in hospital because frankly I didn't know any better... and I did teach for a couple of years but I've seen too much shit there that I can't deal with and it only took a couple of kicks of the stool out from under me and I just can't... I just can't, I am not emotionally equipped to do that anymore. I got other jobs that wouldn't be as stressfull but when I lost those things just got worse and worse. Now I'm in a situation where junkies pick me up off the street when I'm bashed on xmas day because I'm even more pathetic than them. I've got nothing, nothing anymore and all I can worry about is what will happen to my cat. I'm not on a pension and I am struggling a lot, there is no safety net for me anymore, no family, no-one who cares... just mounting debts of bills that I can barely even pay anymore. I can't understand people at all... I can't understand why they do these horrible things to each other.... an ice junky actually looked good to me because he was the kindest person I had actually met in a really long time.

I don't spend my money on pot... I wish I could like I used to when I had money... it made things seem better. I wish there was somewhere I could take my cat so I knew she would be spoilt and looked after and I could just go quitely die. I had stopped breathing after my brother bashed me and I wish I had just been left to die.... it was easy to die at that point but people had to bring me back just so I could suffer more shit.. why? Why is everything like this? What the fuck kind of place is this and what the fuck kind of people are some of you. Some of you here aren't bad people at all but I just can't stand these pieces of shit, Ic an't stand them here and I can't stand them in the world anymore and I don't think I can fight any of them anymore. There is no help for what I'm going through but I honestly just don't think I lay here and take it anymore.... I just want to die but what will happen to my cat? My cat is the only good and pure thing in my life.

It's obviously true, I have obviously lost my mind but I don't even want my mind back in a world like this, if sane and doing well is doing to people what has been done to me and what I've seen others do even to children then I don't want to be sane, I don't even want to exist in way where I am aware of anything anymore.

What the fuck is this place and what the fuck kind of people are SOME of you? Am I supossed to abuse people, lie, use people to have a good life? Because I don't even want a life anymore. There is literally nothing more I have to offer or give and I can't live in a world like this anymore, I want out. Something bad is going to happen again... I know this feeling... something bad is going to happen... I hope I get to die this time and to the shit people I hope you burn on earth and to the good people, I wish you could be spared the abhorrent things that go on in this world but I at least hope you have comfort and some measure of happiness and I hope you are surrounded by other good people.

[maks]

he says anything and goes to any length to emotionally destroy an internet poster, i think he has a dark obsession with emotional pain or is a sadist, some people are just damaged from day one, theyre usually the ones who grew up fucked up from poor parenting, thats why you get people going out on a weekend consuming alcohol and bashing people, most of them are whacked, waste of a potential cum-shot idiot.
its funny how you cant just go out and have fun without a worry in the world society is fucking lame in some ways.
i wish i was a god, i would totally reveal myself and be like "im the admin you faggot you better not hit on your sister again or im gonna ban you"

in the end of it "trolling" someone can lead to emotional pain, i mean, when you laugh, thats an emotion and about the violence thing its usually fags who were brought up by bigger fags who tried to change them as a child and used force to attempt to change their children which only made their children grow up trying to change other people and not accepting them for who they are and if someones different this faggots personality makes them instantly react inside with frustration and it can end up in a fight. no im not saying i am fucking righteous, or even remotely correct, i am just saying my opinion.
i only have this opinion from reading.

Was this person talking about me? It sounds like they were talking about me.

[Mike the Man]

Have you been getting on their goat?

imagine if we had hundreds and hundreds of redditors and 9gag users stopping by to check this place out, this one suicide could lead to dozens of suicides and really put calumnet on the map.

thats what ive been saying for years, i want a real challenge, someone put me through to the marketing department

[maks]

thats what ive been saying for years, i want a real challenge, someone put me through to the marketing department

oh none of those people would be a challenge but there'd be plenty of them to spare

[JujiDrool]

Was this person talking about me? It sounds like they were talking about me.

Yes maks

They are talking about you


Lol

[oOBatteryOo]

maks

[maks]

clump you got an ETA on your suicide I'd like to watch it but I have to work tomorrow

[JujiDrool]

maks

lol

rubynet world order

[JujiDrool]

everyone drink your cordial

lisa you are acutally a pretty cool girl. i'm really glad i got to know you and become your friend

[always stevey]

XD

make a blingee out of that, pls

[always stevey]

courtney love lisa guitarist pictures

[maks]

lisa looks way better with stuff blocking her face

[always stevey]

She needs lots of make up.

[Bouncer]

I dont believe you.

[maks]

She needs lots of make up.

I was thinking more like 6 feet dirt

[always stevey]

heh

[maks]

[Bouncer]

Oh look he made a post about a GIF

[Bouncer]

Cody, she way hotter than your 60 old