passed the old temp record at 8am today

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and methadone is another drug i'll never try, way too risky since im a polydrug user
the closest i can get to death is my brain "zeroes out" and i slump over in such a way that my airway locks open, so i still must be getting oxygen through diffusion rather than mechanical breathing

i used to could get there with 120mg oxy/150mgeq morphine, plus 4oz whiskey, 2-4mg alprazolam, and 50-100 mg promethazine
now i throw barbiturates and DXM in the mix and i can still barely get a nod. I refuse to inject though, or pay some dritbag out the ass for heroin when everything else i can get for price of fucking tapwater

if you dont use opiates for a few weeks your tolerance completely goes back to baseline. I thought I had a permanent tolerance for a long time, but last night was my first night using opiates in almost a month, and I actually 'felt' 15mg of hydrocodone. It didn't give me a nod mind you, but I 'felt' it. I thought it was a miracle, because normally I don't even bother with hydrocodone because a few times I had eaten 75mg of it and felt absolutely nothing.

About a month ago I had a 120mg/day oxy habit or 45mg/day methadone, whichever was easier to get (methadone was invariably cheaper, but would slightly block my oxy high for a few days afterwards so I usually chose oxy when I could afford it).
But anyways, the point is that my tolerance is actually lower right now than it has been in years, after just one month of not using any opiates.

I'm happy with where I'm at with opiates right now; I don't have a job so I can't do them every day and skyrocket my tolerance again. I can only afford to have a few day long binge every 1-2 weeks, but now I don't have to worry about tolerance or whether I'm going to be sick if I can't find another dose