i'm startin with the man in the mirror, i'm askin him to chaaange his waaaays

[Plug Drugs]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

[blumpkin blownuts]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

it is unsolvable, and the worst part is i did it to myself. what's even worse is all the people who are able to use substances without abusing them, they got some kind of bonus that i didn't get. it's completely fucking unfair, yet -- honestly -- i don't care. it's finally not worth getting upset over anymore.

i am not defined by my mistakes, but i don't pretend they never happened, because i will be learning from those mistakes and using them to improve myself and my quality of life for the rest of my life. sometimes i feel bad for fucked up people who never got addicted, because recovery is so much more than how to stay clean, it provides incredibly useful tools for learning to live happy, joyous and free.

[blumpkin blownuts]

anyway i'm off to my gf's

i hope you do it mike, but it's up to you to realize whether or not you need help from people like you to improve your life
NA can't remove your desire to get high, you really need to already have that before even bothering with recovery

[blumpkin blownuts]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

Keep in mind there's other recovery groups besides 12-step programs, like Reasonable Recovery which teaches addicts they can still use in moderation without ever getting out of control again. I think the doctor who founded that particular group later got behind the wheel drunk and she ended up killing most of a family in an accident.