I love her a lot.

She isn't pissing blood everywhere today and isn't yowling in pain. I managed to give her most of her medication I think but she isn't eating enough. I just want her to eat more right now.

Look if she ends up in pain or stops eating all together I will get her euthanised. I'm not going to watch her suffer but I want to make as comfortable and as happy as I can right now. I know she is going to die eventually anyway but I'll do everything I can for her until it gets to that point.

Poor thing is probably wondering why I keep crying at her and putting food in front of her every 20 mins.