Originally Posted by
Lisa
I think you can see my brain melt ITT
I'm settling down now, you can see why that is a very very sometimes food because that just melts your brain the neurons just keep firing off and it uses so much energy and it's just unhealthy and like burnt out lightbulbs like some of my brain just melted because it never got repair with sleep but not like I'll have it again, like I'll recover because as fucking good that felt hours ago when i wasn't as burnt out as I'm now comming down and bits of brain dying because no sllep and just because drugs like it i know if taking hard drugs as a regular habit well it's fucking bad and my whole life and brain and gealth wil get ruined and you know You can see why it's not my drug of choice, why i like a drug that slows and regulates neurons firing off, it's just much more peacfull but yeah of course drugs can feel good and it made me just so, like really just enhanced the sex for me like yeah a once off once a blue moon thing where the side affect is like this which is just untenable for me so like yeah that great and fun and it's a huge night for me like taking speed is a huge fucking night and day for me, but i would not want to be like all the time no way, feels good but fucking it's hard drugs, and especially speed you know, i stick with pot because I'll take peace and slowing and regulting of neurons firing off in my brain anyday over this, i have no idea what i just typed or why but yeah so this actually me if I was an actual meth junky and I think the difference is stark enough and that basically Zi post everyday that you can see I don't actually take speed or meth, like I've i've had it a few times in my life but clealy not often, you've never seen me like this, you know some of you don't fucking know me at all, you know people who don't fucking know me at all but seem to think they are do are like cody and monde and even dp doesn't fucking know me and maks doesn't know me marco doesn't fucking know because they are fucking pussies, like seriously they are fucking pussies because well they are fucking scared of me to be honest, a couple like dp and maks, like they are fucking scared of me because they are actually smart enough to know they fucking should be scared of me and so wisely for them they don't want to really know me because they know It would just lead to me really affecting thier brain in some way and they just don't want that, they don't want to know me because they are scared of knowing me, and you know shit I have posted nearly every day with them for a couple of years but they have drawn a line in the sand about how much they even want to humanise me... Now that is tjose two maks and dp and they are the same as in they are both not stupid but they are both fucking demented, cody and monde and shit, they don't know me because they literally do not know me because i know who knows me like who talks to me like I am actual person and who i actually talk to or just have that capacity with and i have nothing to do with them because i don't actually like them, m0nde used to be ok and I played some games with him and he was good to play games with me because he's shit at games but because he's shit at games he's actually pateient enough to teach someone how to play a game but still i've spent maybe 3 hours tops in my whole life playing games with monde and he doesn't fucking know me or anything about my life, and since he came back he's been like a fuckhead and fuckheads don't know me because i don't like fuckheads, some of you know me because you know me because of just actually knowing me a bit, but anyway I see some of you posting shit about me that is made up or not even true and not even being able to tell what are my accounts and what are some fucking fucking loser lisa troll and the fact that anyone you know runs around trying to pretend to be me in a fucking forum like that goes a long way to say that yeah you are fucking retarded losers and I'm just well I'm just something you would obsess about and give up that much of your fucking brain soace to because you are literally that lacking and wanting and that like I biochemically own your fucking brain, i mean you tealise you are a barely a blip on my radar like you are actually lacking anything about you, especially intelligence that would make me afford you any more thought than "wow" some people actually are a LOT less intellgent than a lot of pet animals lije seriously the disparity between intellignce is so fucking great between people like that and smart people and like if you had even avarge intelligence you'd know how fucking lame it is for you to be so fucking consumed by me that basically I am like a god in your fucking head, i mean you literally don't see me or anyone being so consumed by you that they would do anything like that, like you are literally so nothing to me and Zi'm literally like a big deal to you and I can see why you hate me becauae you are so fucking shit and pathetic of of such dull low intelligence that yeah i'm just so obviously like just in that other league you know exists but you are just not in but you think if you snap at my ankles spazz make up demented shit and go whatver extreme you can to be acknowledged by me in any way like that will actually help you delude yourself that I am on a as low as kevel as you and that I am attainable to you if you PRETEND I'm all thsese things that drag me down to your level and fact is aome people are just better than other and I am SO much better than you and that goes for the fucking losers who don't know me but post made up shit about me, people who actually know me because they are just not scared if me because of 1. They are actually euipped intellectually and just in ways where like well see they are not scared if me because they don't see me as something more dominant than they are, like you know they aren't the actual bottom the barrel, I'm just some whatever silly monkey to them again that's just because the league I'm in which is not the you know the best league there is by a long shot but it is just so fucking far from the bottom of the barell shit that is just well inferior and they are inferior in every way, well people in my own league or in higher leagues than me, they aren't fucking scared of me, they aren't intellectually, psychologically, goodness or physical attributes inferior to me, they know that to them I'm just 35 woman who is a bit insane, they know I'm smart but they aten't actually stupid so like it doesn't impress/threaten them, they know that I'm all kinds if fucked up and not the most together ir sucessfull person, they know that I'm actually a good person, I'm not really that shit but they don't care you know, i don't fucking consume them, i'm just someone they either like because they aren't mentally just not capable of actually knowing what someobe is really like so they either like me, or some things about me maybe you know if they like me they invest enough in me to not really like certain things about me and what not or you know they are just indifferent, like what I do just doesn't matter to them, they are mentally capable of having a proper rounded fulfilled life where soneone like me, like honestly i don't matter to them they may know I exist and be mentally capable enough of knowing what someone, anyone us actually but I'm just inconsequential you know, and they are more my equals or actually betters you know, they don't fucking hate me, they don't sit there being affected by a post I make, like you know, you have to pretty fucking lacking to be consumed by me like some of the losers that literally are incapble of not just being consumed mentally like yes, you are actually dumber than me, actually a shitter poersin than me in every way, actually failing more interpersonally, less successfull, like actually you wish you were me because you think if you were me all the small minded pathetic YOU want in life you just have it with ease and as it is you just do not the possess the faculties and yeah you hate ne for it, you are jealous because you are actually like and organism that is inferior in a way you can't can't actually see past your own nose, like that actually requires some intelligences that you, like actually most people just do not posses in order to be able to have any idea of how fucking different sone people are to you, like seriously bottom of the barell there us a whole other level of understanding that is just beyond what someone like you, like let me put it this way, intellignce is like a main semse like sight, touch, smell, like and you just have no idea how much you just don't fucking get it and how much nore a oerson with higher intellignce just knows, understands is such more entirety than you, and look there are people who are stupid who are really fucking good owople in every way just aren't smart but you aren't one of them like seriously the differnce between oeople is like so every extreme of each end exists, like forget it lol but sadly for you fir not actually intelligent enough to realise that not many are as actually stupid as you, like seriously you are bellow average intelligence and you just can never actually achieve attaining someone better than you by trying to make up that they are shit like you because that is just, you'd need to be as stupid as you to be e ven so lacking in self awareness that you would even do that because that's the thing, you don't have the self awareness ir intelligence to take diown a female as smart as ne, she would actually have to be as stupid as you in the first place and if you were to ge able to actually psychologically reduce me to a level that is shit enough that you think if you could I would be attainable to you you'd have to be smarter than me and lol LOL that would be one smart mother fucker and a mother fucker that smart is smart enough to have better things to do than that like it would be pretty fucking fucking weird if someone that smart actually would want to do that which you aren't even smart enough to know what to do with a person if you broke them ket alone smart enough, like let's just say it'll never fycking happen, i mean you aren't even aware of what you are doing ir why, you literally do not have the mental capacity, all you know is I affect you mentally, you are consumed by me, and that is just your best attempt, you do not have the mental capacity to be self aware enough to know what internilising and externalising is and you are certainly not aware of your simple basic psychological defense which is just like, so fucking basic, but you are so fucking stupid please, trust me it's not even worth you trying you have no chance in hell of aquiring what you want, like if you only you knew, but you literally don't and you know some of you are barely bettercthan thatclevel, you might be slightly more smarter than the ones who like imititate me and are consumed by me but you aren't like actually smart, like you really are just so basically stupid that you are like m0nde or cody ir wendy level where you are basically well i shit all over brain, wake up and realise it, you literally make shit up about me and are afected by me at all and you actually paychologically delude yourself that you are close enough to me in any way to actually know ne, i mean look at you, you're fucking affected by me in a way that frankly only the fucking inferior can be and all you can do is make stuff up about me to try and reduce me to a level that is closer to the actual kind if shit petson you are, you think if you were me that you would do better than me and that you would be able to attain the things that you want but can't obtain because you're too fat, ugly, unfit, stupid, just not a good enough person, all those pitiful little things you lack in life which is basically like everything, like seriously you haven't been able to obtain what you want in life, I don't even want what you want because as you already actually kow those thing YOU want yeah I could get them fucking easy but I'm actually just a better and nore fucking complex person than you, i understand that i have my wants that ithers have that I can't obtain because you know I don't have the capacity for it, like Look at people who are better than me and wish stuff like, i wiah I was as good as them as in goodness or I wish I was as emotionally intelligent as them and then you know I'd always be able to deal with things, like nothing wpuld fall apart for me because I wouldn't go insane, like I would be fully functional but i'm actually just not as stupid and shit oerson as you to be consumed by them like seriously most people are not as psychologically stupid as you, but anyway the point is, you are fucking a lot dumber than people who are smart and a way shiiter petson than somone who a us good person, like you just are and frankly I don't give a shit about how fucking horrible you feel that I exist and you are some kind of inferior specimen i think you are shit people with shit feelings and understanding of them, like I am technically emotionally retarded but I am smarter than you and know I am i have enough intellignce to be self aware that I am emotionally retarded but you well you are emotionally retarded without actually having enough intelligence or wherewithal to be able to judge that you are actually more emotionally retarded than most people, like i bet you ACTUALLY think you aren't emotionally retarded like you just don't don't have enough intellenge to posses the self awareness of your emotional intelligence, like you know self awareness is based on intellignce and the more intelligent you are as in just plain smart the more self aware you are, the animals thats can achieve self awareness are considered more intelligent than ones cannot, that is because how self aware you are is based on how intelligent you are like that is what intellignce actually means, and you're just not smart, you're just not self aware, certainly not by my standars and my standards of intellignce are a lot higher than your and frankly not by anyone's standards who is actually well smart, your not self aware enought to know that most people are more emotionally intelligent that you, you don't know that because you're just not smart enough to understand your externalising, like it would actually be a rude shock to your ego if you actually internilised and was self aware enough to know exactly where you sit as far as emotional intelligence or general intelligence, like you aren't actually smart enough to internilise, like your ego which is another facet of intelligence is just not psychologically intelligent enough to withstand, like look the way you behave is like well ok well i am like quite a few standard deviations higher than you in like IQ and just self awareness, your behviour is like so fucking basic so much so that it is like it is, that you are actually this stupid which believe me, it's like we are other species you are actually that much dumber than me but like you're also shit in so many other areas of intellence, m0nde you might have technically an verage IQ possibly even like just slighly above average, like 110 tops but being so you have no actual idea how fucking stupid most people are and there fire no idea how much fucking differnce rhere is betwwen you in intelligence and someone who is even 130's in IQ like seriously someone that much of a percent smarter than you is like actually A LOT fucking smarter than you and frankly well you'll never be able to see judge ir understand that much of a differnce likt to you stupid people are stupid right, and people of average intelligence are just a bit dumber than you and they are basically your tools due to you socipath traits like they are the people you can manipulate into what you are socially competeting for and don't get it wrong you're not like as much of a socipath as some and you are smarter than some of them but basically you care so much about what people think of you it's like you think whatver little you actually have over those those who who are like average intellignce actually doesn't make you an utter failure and stupid and shit compared to all the smart pwople but the irony for you is is how much dumber you think think stupid people are than you that is literally as many deviations dumber you are to someone with a repectable smart IQ of 130 right, like ok that is a modestly smart IQ i30's but that is not even a genius and there well there is a reasonable number out of 100 people that actually have iq's that high and hugher ok but like how stupid you see someone with an IQ of 70 right that is actually legally retarded, well that is how fuxking dumb you look to anyone who is actually even hust smart let alone genius or superior intellignce or higher sid, you are more than that much stupid to me, sid does the poor simpke bugger with an iq of 70 have any idea concept or self awarness to to know that you are just slightly abive average intelligence. No and it is like just really evident to you when someone is what considered legally retarded? Yet very fucking obious, look that is actually the same kind of disparity I am talking about with you, to me sid 30 points difference is an obvious diffrence let alone morevthan 50 points because for every 100 people you meet sid you will meet someone who is like 50 or more iq points more intelligent than than you, like multiole deviations, and sud i might be emotionally retarded and more so than you because I actually produce more chemicals and reabsirb them a lot slower but as far as how fucking self aware you are sid, as far as the capacity of your intellignce you are more than fuxking 30 points lower than me, you as as fucking dumb and basic as what someone who is legally retarded is to you more so because you have not even the sligtest fucking inkling how fucking big mine is, and for all the things I'm small in like my babydick emotiinal intelligence it is fucking huge and you need a bigger one that what you have to even be able know how muxh duxking dumber you are than me or or even just a smart person. Like seriouslybthe world is set up with the average IQ being 100 like the world is actually tailored for people even dumber than you there is nothing you do, nothing in your behaviour and just nothing in your intellignce that even hints at you having anything other than slightly above average intelligence and well you're peovably hust smart enough to kbow that there are pwople dumver than you but not amart wnough to have any cincept of just how much fucking dumber you are than a hell of a lot of people including me. Anyway you're a creep, you're stupid, you don't know me, you are in fact not as good as me in any way, and frankly your even more pathetic than cody because cody well cody is like well he is like that only he more self aware that he is you meanwhile with you it's almost like you are that stupid you don't even know you are doing it. Like seriously when you are you sid and about as smart as you but as just so well juat SO much less you'll do a lot better to just go ahead and try and be an actually nice person you know becauae you'll never know how fucking pitifully pathetic your attempt to do anything otherbthan humbly be an actually nice person looks, how fuxking much you fail at your attempt to do anything other than that and how you really fucking lack the intellectual capacity to not behave in what looks like to anyone with an Iq over 130 as really basic simple behvior and frankly i think unless you consiously try and be like you know, just an actually good pwrson that you're juat well well again your like not smart and you're actually a shit person like not inherently good and smart and self sufficienct in yourself with that, like for you to actually be like a good person would require a concious effort and you know what that is ok if it does but you aren't actually good at all if you don't conciously well be more self awarecand conciously be a goos person so like that's how it is, at least you COULD not be as fucking shit in every way but there is no two ways about it you are just a shitter person than me i mean yeah, just your a fucking loser ok? And one of the things that utterly confirms that is your behaviour towards me you you stupid and pathetic basic fucking nasty stupid fucking male like you know, you actually know you are but what makes me not give a shir that you are actually so fuckng sad and pathetic like that is how you actually feel and what not makes me a give a shit that tou feel so fucking sad about yourself is that you're a shit person and you feeling like that is like the best thing you can do for your character and maybe just get fucking real enough for a second, like actually real not you made up fucking lies that are a weak stupid pathetic attempt to project and externalise your fucking actual inferiority, inferior because you are actually a shitter person than me, and just get real enough and actually have enough self awarness to be aboe discren what is a shit feeling in you because you are a shit oersin and what is a pathetic attempt to externalise that shitness because well simpler, dumber, less self awarevpeople do that, it's a natural thing but just get real enough to fucking own that is your feeling and that you actually do deserve to feel that way and yeah it's shit reality is shit and frankly you needs to be about as dumb as you or dumber too just not be self aware of that you will literally still be that pathetic and just as a shit person no mattee what tou do unless you actually just realise it, own it, it's literally you not because of me or any other reason or any deficiency of anyone else, like to get fuxking real with yourself like that would actually be personal growth and actually make you way less of a shit person because at least like realise something a little more fucking real than you being fucking fake and just have that much more self awarness like everyone else who is just smarter than you and already fucking knows that about themselves, self awarness is not a happy feeling wgere you feel good, there are no really smart people who feel good or feel happy, there just isn't they can just be aware of shit how it actually is and they can still be like good people but you can't be smart and have that much self awarness and feel good about yourself, like it seriouslybtake a lack of intellignce and self awareness to delude yourself into not intrinsically just being aware of that shitness, but are that shit in actuality so you can't actually not be shit unless you you actually be aware of fucking faculties and just KNOW that tou are, like seriously the irony is that you can't be a good person unless you know you are shit, otherwise you are just fucking shit and stupid enough to not have the self awarness to not be shit, i don't expect you to understand what irony is because for some of you it's a word that you don't actually understand the concept of, and that's ok irony is actually something that requires you know a reasonably high intelligence to grasp the actual conceot of and fact is MOST people do not actually know what irony is and I have universally seen more people misuse rhe word than actually use ir correctly but it is known as requiring more than average intelligence to grasp and ironically most peole who try to use the word irony don't actually know its meaning and completely misuse ir i swear Doli has never used the correct in the right context even once like he doesn't actually know what it means but he uses it a lot. Anyway yeah. So that's it. Most of you are that fucking sumb and shit at all, basically if you don't post like ypu are fucking mentally consumed by me which everyine whi isn't a fucking moronic fucking dumb loser doesn't do, like they just don't do it because well once again there is a fucking difference and they are just better than you like you'll never understand being so shit how fucking just shit, dumb, pathetic and ahit you are and what you actually look like to the people who aren't shit pathetic consumed because there is actually si little to you compared to people who are bettter than you like there is not a lot to you, so seriously you see how little the people who aren't desperate basic stupid fucking shit people losers post about you or me anyone you see how they don't fucking make up shit about ANYONE? That is because they are ALL people who are just smarter and better peple than you so if you ARE continually making up shit about someone as your best defense as being welp just not as iherently good as they are well then yep that is basicaloy like, well yeah what I said we so obviously all were not born equal but while the more basic of you fuckheads, you know the ones that like yeah that's for real they are actually that fucking sumb and parhetic, well while you might not actually understand a lot of concepts do you at least know what a fucking utter duckhead loser is? Because how could you possibly know what one is and not fucking know that you are one, like lol, how could you possibly not know that you behaving like that, that that is what you do, like swriously how could you not know that you are a fucking uuter fucking loser, total fuckhead? Lol like what do you think one is? Lol because wow that is like a whole level of dumb that is just incomprehnsible to me, that you do not even know what it is that makes someone an actual fucking loser, like a fuckhead or just plain stupid and shit, like seriously what do you think one is? lol
Lisaking steveyos11-28-2014
