I'm joking. It's the suicidal feelings I'm tired of battling. Funny joke huh. I'm going to see how long I can pretend no-one else exists... probably for a long as it takes me to have a sleep but it would probably be good for me for a bit, to just pretend that no-one exists and just lay here with my cat and wait until we die. I'm kind of done though and I'm merely just existing from here on out until I cease to do that and join my cat who will die probably before me. How fucking tedious.

Before I try and go into a coma for a week I just want to comfort you all by saying that you either get to die first or sit there and watch everything and everyone you love die before you and then die anyway. Sweet dreams xoxo.