Anyone know a hitman?

I started posting when it was ytmnsfw because I was 14 and had no self esteem and wanted validatiom from internet strangers. Then it grew on me and turned into a really weird dysfunctional community where I could be a totally unfunny fag and I probably made some questionable choices and said some unwholesome things but whatever.

I'm 36 and have roamed the internet for over 20 years.

I personally have no excuse for being here.