Hey guys, I've read alan chapmans begginers magick and decided to do sigils.
After browsing the net and exploring multi options, since i suck badly at artistic graphical things i decided to construct my sigil.
I would make 3 hexagrams joined together. Write my intention below. Remove the vowels and then new remove the repeating letters.
Then I would inscribe those letters randomly in hexagrams angles and center. And connect them with ruler ( in order of letters written before).
( later i have found out my sigils look like those sigils for angelic beings )
Anyway I charged them by wanking while repeating the intent in my head and focusing on sigil, then on moment of orgasm visualizing them explode.
Then I would hide those papers inside my notebook. ( Basically a paper would have intention, hexagrams for connecting and then again written sigil below).
I've made one to get a girlfriend since my love life sucks badly. And another one for discipline in my goals i follow.
For love life i have started it with " I will be in relationship"
and for discipline it was " It is my will to be "
What happens afterwards is basically I have lost interest in finding a girlfriend, desire is on level 2/10 and my discipline has vanished dramatically. I literally am stuck in a haze of anxiety doing NOTHING or sometimes playing superhard video games.
Before I was training in gym 3-4 a week and studying computer science and getting up at 5am. But now I can't even nail going to bed on time.
Any help?