I feel so cold in the pit of my stomach

[Donald Stone Jr]

and there is no way I can sleep

Me too.

It's something to do with life and life is pretty fatal but it still feels pretty bad.... it's hurting in my chest now.

Feels like it's strangling me too.

Isn't it all just so fucking great.

I can feel the world getting more and more bullshit with every painful breath

Every night without sedation is an endurance test I'm failing

I wish I could have cuddled Doony.

You're right though, it can only last so long and it will end.

I just have to lay here and breath/wheeze and wait for sheer mental exhaustion

You either die first or have to watch everyone else die first and all the horror in the meantime

I wish nice things for Doony

but let's face it, there isn't any nice things for anyone