normal people try things, the do things, they meet people they learn they go places they experience life. you spend the entirety of your day laying on a bare mattress someone else paid for staring at a computer someone else paid for and complaining that no video game is deep enough to really offer you the kind of escape you're desperate for. you're developmentally stuck at like age 11 and I doubt that's ever going to change. you've never accomplished anything, you've never had a real experience of any kind, you've never developed a skill, and you never will.