stevey projecting big time, you wanted to suicide over some paperwork minutiae, stevey. people deal with that stuff every day, but you've fucked up your life so much, that just 1 instance of some beaureaucratic bullshit brought you not just to tears but to suicide.
you need some tough love. you need to lose everything and then have to become a human being. if only your mother hadn't put you on this path to the lowest common denominator.

if you ever need help, when you're bored with being a loser, call me.