well, the main thing is wanting help and wanting a change for the positive. i think you're trying to do that, lisa, by keeping some sort of regular schedule, taking your medication and making yourself go to your volunteer job.
i'm sure you know how negative this place is for you, but you enjoy fighting with people.

hopefully you can help bev to be honest with her doctor and talk about the things she does on the internet. just reading the last few days, many people are telling her she's acting in an erratic manner. hopefully, when she actually goes away for the wedding she's been talking about, she'll balance herself out