Quote Originally Posted by Plug Drugs View Post
God told me through feeling "Its alright, love is the answer, but this world is doomed. Come with me now to Heaven, come with me now and leave this world behind" but I told him "No, I want to stay for the time being, the person I love is here, I have to stay for them." They have since left my life, and I can no longer re-gain that same feeling of enlightment. I have become corrupt, my soul is now damned and God's invitation is no longer available to me. I sometimes think that this is my own reality, invented by my subconscious -- my own personal hell or purgatory for me to reside in for all eternity
the things God shared with me all those times i was turning blue still scare me, because I still can't refute them as delusions even after a month in psych & 13 weeks without a drink or drug.