The Story of Plug Drugs - Chronicling of a Drug-Addicted Background Poster

[Plug Drugs]

I am going through opiate withdrawals and I am drunk right now this might not come out coherent
ever since i was a little boy my family used to love me so much, then when i was 12 my mom got us AOL (about 2002) and i started trolling girls on the AOL chatrooms calling them "a dumbass whore" and a "little bitch go suck more dick you cunt", then one day our AOL got shut off due to "lewd & obscene behavior" on the AOL chatrooms and my mommy got to read chat logs of all the negative profanities i was saying to people. That was the beginning of my trolling career

due to bad genes, I transformed from a cute little kid who girls my age were obsessively in love with to a mildly over-weight teenager who now had to adapt to competing for attention like all the other boring normal kids
I became a shut-in who played wc3 all day. At age 12, I drank my first mixed drink. At age 13, i smoked my first joint. By age 14, I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. I started out my drug career with a tylenol 3 w/ codeine prescription i got from my doctor for back pain (due to growing pains). After that, I was aggresively seeking any drugs I could get; I resorted to amateur shit like over the counter antihistamines and the dextromethorphan in cough medications, as well as LSA from morning glory seeds (the ones that you can buy at any gardening store). I progressed on to ambien, vicodin, and benzodiazpines (lorazepam/ativan, clonazepam/klonopin, etc).

During the first semester of my sophomore year, I was failing every class with flying colors, but I bought a bottle of adderall from my friend down the street and stayed up for a week studying and doing homework to turn all my grades around from Fs and Ds to As and Bs during the last week of the semester. I still feel that I owe the earning of my high school diploma to Adderall; without it, I would have never even began earning the credits I needed to graduate.

Over the years, I developed a large history of drug use which I remain proud of to this day. These drugs included the likes of: methadone, valium/diazepam, xanax/alprazolam, methylphenidate/ritalin, adderall/amphetamine, morphine, hydromorphone/dilaudid, fentanyl, mushrooms, alphamethyltryptamine (AMT).

When I was 17, my mom had me admitted to a mental health hospital to deal with constant panic attacks and frequent visits to the emergency room. There, using my cunning linguistic skills, I convinced the doctor to prescribe my a large dose of adderall a day, which still remains a very large demon in my life to this day.

After graduating from the mental hospital, I returned to the real world only to have the shadow of amphetamine use constantly haunt me and ruin my life. The only girl I ever truly loved left me during this time period. I became psychotic, staying up for 1-2 weeks at a time on adderall, and lashing out at loved ones and pushing them away.
The downward spiral continued for many years: I would get my adderall prescription, stay up for 1-2 weeks straight, then spend the rest of the month sedentary and trying to work myself out of the psychosis I was in.

Nowadays, my mom had finally gotten fed up with me contributing nothing at all to the world and essentially kicked me out. I am working for near minimum wage, and very much still addicted to opiates and prescription stimulants.

Hopes for the future: I may yet turn my life around and go back to school next semester for pre-med (I am exceptionally intelligent, I do read the works of many philosophers which even scholars refer to as "difficult material). Maybe one day I will become a doctor and leave my dark past behind me, perhaps using it to guide those who are in similar situations towards recovery.

[maks]

I just farted

[timmy]

[blumpkin blownuts]

Sorry pd but you are not different... hope to see you at NA sometime

[Plug Drugs]

but on one of my trips i felt the touch of GOD!!!

[Plug Drugs]

isnt that what schizos ramble on about on street corners? Oh well, if i can remain coherent, I can write a self-help book "Amphetamine and the God-head" and make millions off of desperate suckers who were going through similar situations but werent quite as intelligent

[timmy]

you arent intelligent just becuase you read philosophy books by people who were narcissists, sorry to burst your drug induced bubble.

[blumpkin blownuts]

most junkies are quite intelligent, it takes alot of smarts to con ourselves into thinking self-destructive behaviors aren't insane, or out of our control

[maks]

anyone who makes a living at philosophy is probably a narcissist, you have to have a pretty high opinion of yourself to believe you see the world more clearly than everyone else

[Plug Drugs]

God told me through feeling "Its alright, love is the answer, but this world is doomed. Come with me now to Heaven, come with me now and leave this world behind" but I told him "No, I want to stay for the time being, the person I love is here, I have to stay for them." They have since left my life, and I can no longer re-gain that same feeling of enlightment. I have become corrupt, my soul is now damned and God's invitation is no longer available to me. I sometimes think that this is my own reality, invented by my subconscious -- my own personal hell or purgatory for me to reside in for all eternity

[timmy]

yea i guess the more insane you are the more intelligent you are lmao

[DrHundos]

sorry bro losers arent allowed to become doctors you cant even handle adderall without becoming hopelessly addicted, that is pathetic lol i was taking as much adderall as i could with my friends to see who could go longest without succumbing to overdose symptoms and in a couple hours i'd be back on my feet like nothing ever happened and never got addicted

[blumpkin blownuts]

yea i guess the more insane you are the more intelligent you are lmao

there's plenty of theoretical mathematicians and physicists that have cracked up because they discovered things they regretted

[timmy]

you mean they thought too hard and were traumatized by something?
thats just psychological its not really saying youre intelligent just because youre smart its their brain chemistry going bad.

plug drugs turned 20 and is now realizing his life sucks

[timmy]

what i mean is you can be smart or dumb and have psychological trauma there is no real connection between intelligence and being mental.

maybe the smart people who go mental are just narrowminded and see things they figure out that they dont want to be true like einstein not liking the idea that tehre was a beginning of time and he lost his marbles trying to figure out a formula that says there wasnt a beginning

[Plug Drugs]

if I cared about money or success I could play the stock market and be a millionaire, you'd better believe it. If you were over 18 at the time of the internet's boom, you have no excuse not to be a millionaire right now. Why didn't you invest in google you fools? If I was over 18 back then, I'd have put every penny in it and be living comfortably for the rest of my life.
But I don't care about money, I care about love, but women don't want a bohemian, they instinctually don't want a guy like that

[timmy]

YOUD BETTER BELIEVE I COULD PLAY THE STOCK MARKET *pushes trolleys for a living*

yes, it is prety easy to say you would have picked the winning lottery numbers once you already know what they are

you probabyl would have invetsed in askjeeves

[timmy]

quick plugdrugs facebook shares are plummeting get them when they hit rock bottom youll be RICH!

[DrHundos]

if I cared about money or success I could play the stock market and be a millionaire

think of all the little pussy drugs you could buy if you did though you could float on a little fluffy pink cloud for the rest of your life while real men drink codeine cough syrup and do the good stuff

[juji]

I am going through opiate withdrawals and I am drunk right now this might not come out coherent
ever since i was a little boy my family used to love me so much, then when i was 12 my mom got us AOL (about 2002) and i started trolling girls on the AOL chatrooms calling them "a dumbass whore" and a "little bitch go suck more dick you cunt", then one day our AOL got shut off due to "lewd & obscene behavior" on the AOL chatrooms and my mommy got to read chat logs of all the negative profanities i was saying to people. That was the beginning of my trolling career

due to bad genes, I transformed from a cute little kid who girls my age were obsessively in love with to a mildly over-weight teenager who now had to adapt to competing for attention like all the other boring normal kids
I became a shut-in who played wc3 all day. At age 12, I drank my first mixed drink. At age 13, i smoked my first joint. By age 14, I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. I started out my drug career with a tylenol 3 w/ codeine prescription i got from my doctor for back pain (due to growing pains). After that, I was aggresively seeking any drugs I could get; I resorted to amateur shit like over the counter antihistamines and the dextromethorphan in cough medications, as well as LSA from morning glory seeds (the ones that you can buy at any gardening store). I progressed on to ambien, vicodin, and benzodiazpines (lorazepam/ativan, clonazepam/klonopin, etc).

During the first semester of my sophomore year, I was failing every class with flying colors, but I bought a bottle of adderall from my friend down the street and stayed up for a week studying and doing homework to turn all my grades around from Fs and Ds to As and Bs during the last week of the semester. I still feel that I owe the earning of my high school diploma to Adderall; without it, I would have never even began earning the credits I needed to graduate.

Over the years, I developed a large history of drug use which I remain proud of to this day. These drugs included the likes of: methadone, valium/diazepam, xanax/alprazolam, methylphenidate/ritalin, adderall/amphetamine, morphine, hydromorphone/dilaudid, fentanyl, mushrooms, alphamethyltryptamine (AMT).

When I was 17, my mom had me admitted to a mental health hospital to deal with constant panic attacks and frequent visits to the emergency room. There, using my cunning linguistic skills, I convinced the doctor to prescribe my a large dose of adderall a day, which still remains a very large demon in my life to this day.

After graduating from the mental hospital, I returned to the real world only to have the shadow of amphetamine use constantly haunt me and ruin my life. The only girl I ever truly loved left me during this time period. I became psychotic, staying up for 1-2 weeks at a time on adderall, and lashing out at loved ones and pushing them away.
The downward spiral continued for many years: I would get my adderall prescription, stay up for 1-2 weeks straight, then spend the rest of the month sedentary and trying to work myself out of the psychosis I was in.

Nowadays, my mom had finally gotten fed up with me contributing nothing at all to the world and essentially kicked me out. I am working for near minimum wage, and very much still addicted to opiates and prescription stimulants.

Hopes for the future: I may yet turn my life around and go back to school next semester for pre-med (I am exceptionally intelligent, I do read the works of many philosophers which even scholars refer to as "difficult material). Maybe one day I will become a doctor and leave my dark past behind me, perhaps using it to guide those who are in similar situations towards recovery.

2 + 2 = ?

[blumpkin blownuts]

God told me through feeling "Its alright, love is the answer, but this world is doomed. Come with me now to Heaven, come with me now and leave this world behind" but I told him "No, I want to stay for the time being, the person I love is here, I have to stay for them." They have since left my life, and I can no longer re-gain that same feeling of enlightment. I have become corrupt, my soul is now damned and God's invitation is no longer available to me. I sometimes think that this is my own reality, invented by my subconscious -- my own personal hell or purgatory for me to reside in for all eternity

the things God shared with me all those times i was turning blue still scare me, because I still can't refute them as delusions even after a month in psych & 13 weeks without a drink or drug.

[timmy]

the things God shared with me all those times i was blue and barely alive still scare me, because I still can't refute them as delusions even after a month in psych & 13 weeks without a drink or drug.

put it this way - there is no god and we all only live once, being dead is just the same as not being born, nothing happens. mad about not existing anymore? deal with it just like everyone has to.

[Plug Drugs]

yes, it is prety easy to say you would have picked the winning lottery numbers once you already know what they are

you dont have to know what they are in retrospect you just have to know what people like and prefer. I was a freshman in highschool when google went on the market. Everyone was using google at that point; yahoo and jeeves were jokes. You'd have to be a fool not to think that google's stock was going to boom

[blumpkin blownuts]

what i mean is you can be smart or dumb and have psychological trauma there is no real connection between intelligence and being mental.

maybe the smart people who go mental are just narrowminded and see things they figure out that they dont want to be true like einstein not liking the idea that tehre was a beginning of time and he lost his marbles trying to figure out a formula that says there wasnt a beginning

neither necessitates the other, but certain types of intelligence often -- not always -- imply neuroses

[juji]

put it this way - there is no god and we all only live once, being dead is just the same as not being born, nothing happens. mad about not existing anymore? deal with it just like everyone has to.

What if is no god and would you fuck iwascruel?

[timmy]

you dont have to know what they are in retrospect you just have to know what people like and prefer. I was a freshman in highschool when google went on the market. Everyone was using google at that point; yahoo and jeeves were jokes. You'd have to be a fool not to think that google's stock was going to boom

then why dont you or any of your relatives have google stocks? because you didnt know and youre jsut saying you knew.

[maks]

I almost bought $1500 worth of Apple stock 2 weeks before the iphone came out, I decided it would be better to pay off my credit card instead...