is it me or is it just not possible to "just be friends" with a female

[maks]

1) desperation is no reason to lower my standards
2) also no reason to sacrifice a good friendship
3) also not a good reason to interfere with my recovery, nor hers

1) Pride is no reason to walk around at half staff 24 hours a day
2) Friendships can survive fucking, this isn't a movie
3) That's a valid concern but frankly you're not supposed to be hanging out with other addicts in the first place

[blumpkin blownuts]

1) Pride is no reason to walk around at half staff 24 hours a day

it's more than pride, it's narcissism and purism. it's a personality disorder but it's a cornerstone of what little ego i still have

3) That's a valid concern but frankly you're not supposed to be hanging out with other addicts in the first place

we are supposed to hang out with other addicts, but only addicts who are not actively using & are trying to stay clean. it's a key part of the program. if this girl and i use each other, it could possibly drive me back to using, and i'm about 90% sure it will send her back out