If I could think of something I wanted to do or somewhere I want to go then I could do it, problem is there is nothing I want to do and I have nowhere to go. I have no purpose, I don't even have goals anymore. I'm trapped. I have to take pills just so that it's barely tolerable ( I haven't taken any anti-depressants in about 2 weeks) but even then it doesn't change anything, it just makes it slightly more bearable.