I don't think there is anything in life that I actually enjoy anymore

If I could think of something I wanted to do or somewhere I want to go then I could do it, problem is there is nothing I want to do and I have nowhere to go. I have no purpose, I don't even have goals anymore. I'm trapped. I have to take pills just so that it's barely tolerable ( I haven't taken any anti-depressants in about 2 weeks) but even then it doesn't change anything, it just makes it slightly more bearable.

everbody feels like that sometimes. just find something you want to work on and do it. you are fun to be around and most people here like you, but milling around rubynet isnt very productive.