passive aggressive vs aggressive

[Plug Drugs]

I'm psychotic right now, I'm in one of those "i'm pretty witty, i must be a fuggin doctor" states of mind
You have to understand that I was in a psyche ward several times as a teenager for panic attacks.. and being stuck some place you don't want to be and having your pride snuffed out every day by the people keeping you in there makes you take an oath to yourself swearing that you won't ever just forget about what you went through and won't let it happen to other people stuck in your situation.

The last psyche hospital I was in when I was 17, I convinced the psychiatrist there to prescribe me amphetamine and spent the next 2 months reading Nietzsche, Schopenhauer, Kant, Jung, etc.. Basically just loaded myself on snobby egocentric philosophy and psychology..

That was also the age I started to realize that the alleged "adults" in the world don't really have a clue what they're talking about, even if it's their profession. Do you know how a medication works inside of you? Does your doctor? Nobody does. A large aspect of pharmacology is still theoretical, especially psychiatric neurological drugs - basically they've only developed theories on why certain drugs lead to their corresponding psychological effects. Amphetamine has been proposed to reverse reuptake at dopamine/norepinephrine/5-HT transporters leading to its effects as a stimulant.. NMDA antagonists like ketamine used in veterinarian care to sedate animals or dextromethorphan used in over the counter cough syrup produce anesthesia by reducing input from the peripheral nervous system to the central nervous system, also leading to their effects sought in recreational use as dissociatives... blah blah blah.

Do you think your doctor can tell you any of that? No. And the ones that can really only know about as much as me, which says a lot about just how technical the education required to be a doctor really is. Do you think your doctor can tell you what percentage of your medication is metabolized via CYP2D6? Or why monoamine oxidase inhibitors have a high risk of producing a severe negative reaction with any medication that effects levels of dopamine and other monoamine neurotransmitters?
Anyways, I got pissed off that I was being held someplace against my will, especially since the alleged reason I was stuck there was a topic which the people keeping me there knew absolutely fucking nothing about.. so nowadays, usually when I'm pretty loaded, I get it in my head that I'm on a mission to take down and bring justice to the broken ass embarrassment of a mental health system.

[rose west]

I'm psychotic right now, I'm in one of those "i'm pretty witty, i must be a fuggin doctor" states of mind
You have to understand that I was in a psyche ward several times as a teenager for panic attacks.. and being stuck some place you don't want to be and having your pride snuffed out every day by the people keeping you in there makes you take an oath to yourself swearing that you won't ever just forget about what you went through and won't let it happen to other people stuck in your situation.

The last psyche hospital I was in when I was 17, I convinced the psychiatrist there to prescribe me amphetamine and spent the next 2 months reading Nietzsche, Schopenhauer, Kant, Jung, etc.. Basically just loaded myself on snobby egocentric philosophy and psychology..

That was also the age I started to realize that the alleged "adults" in the world don't really have a clue what they're talking about, even if it's their profession. Do you know how a medication works inside of you? Does your doctor? Nobody does. A large aspect of pharmacology is still theoretical, especially psychiatric neurological drugs - basically they've only developed theories on why certain drugs lead to their corresponding psychological effects. Amphetamine has been proposed to reverse reuptake at dopamine/norepinephrine/5-HT transporters leading to its effects as a stimulant.. NMDA antagonists like ketamine used in veterinarian care to sedate animals or dextromethorphan used in over the counter cough syrup produce anesthesia by reducing input from the peripheral nervous system to the central nervous system, also leading to their effects sought in recreational use as dissociatives... blah blah blah.

Do you think your doctor can tell you any of that? No. And the ones that can really only know about as much as me, which says a lot about just how technical the education required to be a doctor really is.

Anyways, I got pissed off that I was being held someplace against my will, especially since the alleged reason I was stuck there was a topic which the people keeping me there knew absolutely fucking nothing about.. so nowadays, usually when I'm pretty loaded, I get it in my head that I'm on a mission to take down and bring justice to the broken ass embarrassment of a mental health system.

Yeh, yeh, enough of all that garbage.
I'm only interested in seeing your dick.