There. I feel like I've sorted you people and that I should retreat from this place

[maks]

I'm not asking you for sympathy maks

holy shit yes you are, you're practically begging for it, that's what this whining is. you're waiting for someone to pat you on the head and say 'there there lisa everything is going to be alright you're a wonderful person and the world is a better place with you in it'. well nobody's going to say that because it's not true, not a word of it.