It can happen to anyone. There are utterly shit people out there, predators who take advantage of situations at the expense of someone innocent, not because of who they are, simply because they can. It has nothing to do with the type of person I am. I did not even have any sexual awareness at the time. It's not because I did something. It was simply because I was a child who didn't comprehend what was actually happening or why. I didn't even understand what had happened until about 3 years later when I became sexually aware and I then understood what that actually all was. I remember the day it struck me, when my brain finally understood what exactly happened, I was painfully embarassed as though I had done something really wrong. It took a long time after that to actually understand that I didn't actually do anything wrong but I always still felt robbed and ruined. I became a bit promiscous I think in some way to try and take that power back, to own what was mine. To be able to consciously decide that I wanted to do that. I would pick someone and decide I wanted to with them and make it happen. Sometimes they chose me but I would take power in being able to decide, with full carnal knowledge, what I was doing and actually wanting to do it. I think sometimes I convinced myself I wanted to do it even if if it weren't for what happened I probably wouldn't of simply because it was the only way I could take the power back to convince myself that I wanted to do it simply because it was happening. But once I actually understood what sex was I never blamed anyone else for what I did sexually after that because I never wanted to feel used. I never mixed sex with emotion after that. They were always and still are always two completely different things to me, which meant I could have sex with people I had no feelings at all for, just for the sake of sex. I mean to a male though that seems easy enough but I think what happened seperated the two things for me, I never really saw sex as affection, more of just a bodily process. I think it might have been different if it weren't for what happened. You know though it really isn't an uncommon thing to happen, I'm not the only one by a long shot. I didn't really feel like analaysing this today. Thanks for bring it up tossers. Have this post and choke.