LOL at my picture rep. Who did that? LOL thankyou that is sweet and funny.

[Battery Bits]

It made it all better. Who's the genius who did that for me? I got cupboard love for them. No really that made me smile. I woke up all sad about what happened to all my rep overnight and then I saw this and now I think that's really cute and sweet. Thankyou xoxo

[Desolation]

yeh

[Battery Bits]

It made me laugh too. <3

Awww, thankyou who did that. It actually means a lot to me. I don't know why but it really does. Sometimes the smallest weirdest things can make me either really happy or sad.

[Desolation]

i was listening to the u + ruby + tekno podcast at work 2day and i had to turn it off after 27 minutes you've had one of the most miserable lives i've ever heard of.

[Battery Bits]

That was about a specific event Deso, an event that sadly is not all that uncommon with women. You wouldn't have a clue what that's like.

[Battery Bits]

At least there is one person who actually listens to the podcasts

[Battery Bits]

Anyway, my rep... I was wondering why I'm so spastic about it and I figure that I just need to feel the love sometimes.

[Battery Bits]

You must be so much a better person than me Deso because you were never raped.

[Battery Bits]

What a fuckhead

[Battery Bits]

Maybe next you could go pick on the sweet guy with brain damage that you herp and pick on, you know because you're so much cooler than them.

[Battery Bits]

Yet you lack the intelligence and decency of character to even figure that one out.

[Battery Bits]

You're a shit person.

[maks]

who would be so desperate that they rape lisa of all people

it was ruby

[maks]

ruby could do better

[Battery Bits]

It can happen to anyone. There are utterly shit people out there, predators who take advantage of situations at the expense of someone innocent, not because of who they are, simply because they can. It has nothing to do with the type of person I am. I did not even have any sexual awareness at the time. It's not because I did something. It was simply because I was a child who didn't comprehend what was actually happening or why. I didn't even understand what had happened until about 3 years later when I became sexually aware and I then understood what that actually all was. I remember the day it struck me, when my brain finally understood what exactly happened, I was painfully embarassed as though I had done something really wrong. It took a long time after that to actually understand that I didn't actually do anything wrong but I always still felt robbed and ruined. I became a bit promiscous I think in some way to try and take that power back, to own what was mine. To be able to consciously decide that I wanted to do that. I would pick someone and decide I wanted to with them and make it happen. Sometimes they chose me but I would take power in being able to decide, with full carnal knowledge, what I was doing and actually wanting to do it. I think sometimes I convinced myself I wanted to do it even if if it weren't for what happened I probably wouldn't of simply because it was the only way I could take the power back to convince myself that I wanted to do it simply because it was happening. But once I actually understood what sex was I never blamed anyone else for what I did sexually after that because I never wanted to feel used. I never mixed sex with emotion after that. They were always and still are always two completely different things to me, which meant I could have sex with people I had no feelings at all for, just for the sake of sex. I mean to a male though that seems easy enough but I think what happened seperated the two things for me, I never really saw sex as affection, more of just a bodily process. I think it might have been different if it weren't for what happened. You know though it really isn't an uncommon thing to happen, I'm not the only one by a long shot. I didn't really feel like analaysing this today. Thanks for bring it up tossers. Have this post and choke.

[Battery Bits]

it was ruby

Yeah thankyou, I already thanked him heaps on steam. He's a genius that guy.

[maks]

what's with the walls of text today are you on meth again

[Battery Bits]

Lol no. Got triggered an had to analyse myself about it.

[maks]

I hope you get raped again, but I've seen you so I doubt it'll happen

[Battery Bits]

Well actually I was obsessed with EMINEM, the obsession with the forum and EMINEM kind of fed into each other. It was an objective obsession though, as both EMINEM and the forum were objects... because I don't actually know EMINEM on any personal basis. I think famous people have to be a lot more tolerant than I could ever be, that would drive me insane.... as if I'm not already.

[Battery Bits]

I hope you get raped again, but I've seen you so I doubt it'll happen

I'll be right old snaggle tooth, I'm a big girl now and I can fight. I am also (assuming I'm not in a dissacioative state) aware of what is going on in situations and can remove myself from dodgy situations which I have done many times maybe a bit to the extreme by being a total shut in now.

[maks]

also you're gross, I'm sure that helps

[Battery Bits]

Lol better men than you would disagree snaggles

[Battery Bits]

Go brush your teeth.

[Battery Bits]

Everyone is gross. Donny told me he wasn't a girl and didn't think everything was gross then he put on a girl voice and said, "Ew, everything is gross"

[maks]

you're actually p unpleasant to look at though, you have a leathery face and the body of a 9 year old boy

[Battery Bits]

That's bullshit, I look a lot younger than I am and you're the same age as me and have way more wrinkles and yellow teeth. Also since I put on that extra weight there is no fucking way I have the body of a boy, no way at all. My ass is huge, my tits are bigger. Some guys seems to like it more.

[maks]

then why hasn't anyone raped you lately

[juji]

That's bullshit, I look a lot younger than I am and you're the same age as me and have way more wrinkles and yellow teeth. Also since I put on that extra weight there is no fucking way I have the body of a boy, no way at all. My ass is huge, my tits are bigger. Some guys seems to like it more.

No way, you have no big tits