every living thing on this earth is a ball of cells, you're rationalizing as hard as you can because otherwise you might have to accept that you did something really evil and selfish and you can't bear the thought that you've ever done anything wrong
you went to a doctor to murder a ball of cells that would have been YOUR child, it would have been YOURS but you killed it and now your half a century old
you went to a doctor to murder a ball of cells that would have been YOUR child, it would have been YOURS but you killed it and now your half a century old