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I am going through opiate withdrawals and I am drunk right now this might not come out coherent
ever since i was a little boy my family used to love me so much, then when i was 12 my mom got us AOL (about 2002) and i started trolling girls on the AOL chatrooms calling them "a dumbass whore" and a "little bitch go suck more dick you cunt", then one day our AOL got shut off due to "lewd & obscene behavior" on the AOL chatrooms and my mommy got to read chat logs of all the negative profanities i was saying to people. That was the beginning of my trolling career

due to bad genes, I transformed from a cute little kid who girls my age were obsessively in love with to a mildly over-weight teenager who now had to adapt to competing for attention like all the other boring normal kids
I became a shut-in who played wc3 all day. At age 12, I drank my first mixed drink. At age 13, i smoked my first joint. By age 14, I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. I started out my drug career with a tylenol 3 w/ codeine prescription i got from my doctor for back pain (due to growing pains). After that, I was aggresively seeking any drugs I could get; I resorted to amateur shit like over the counter antihistamines and the dextromethorphan in cough medications, as well as LSA from morning glory seeds (the ones that you can buy at any gardening store). I progressed on to ambien, vicodin, and benzodiazpines (lorazepam/ativan, clonazepam/klonopin, etc).

During the first semester of my sophomore year, I was failing every class with flying colors, but I bought a bottle of adderall from my friend down the street and stayed up for a week studying and doing homework to turn all my grades around from Fs and Ds to As and Bs during the last week of the semester. I still feel that I owe the earning of my high school diploma to Adderall; without it, I would have never even began earning the credits I needed to graduate.

Over the years, I developed a large history of drug use which I remain proud of to this day. These drugs included the likes of: methadone, valium/diazepam, xanax/alprazolam, methylphenidate/ritalin, adderall/amphetamine, morphine, hydromorphone/dilaudid, fentanyl, mushrooms, alphamethyltryptamine (AMT).

When I was 17, my mom had me admitted to a mental health hospital to deal with constant panic attacks and frequent visits to the emergency room. There, using my cunning linguistic skills, I convinced the doctor to prescribe my a large dose of adderall a day, which still remains a very large demon in my life to this day.

After graduating from the mental hospital, I returned to the real world only to have the shadow of amphetamine use constantly haunt me and ruin my life. The only girl I ever truly loved left me during this time period. I became psychotic, staying up for 1-2 weeks at a time on adderall, and lashing out at loved ones and pushing them away.
The downward spiral continued for many years: I would get my adderall prescription, stay up for 1-2 weeks straight, then spend the rest of the month sedentary and trying to work myself out of the psychosis I was in.

Nowadays, my mom had finally gotten fed up with me contributing nothing at all to the world and essentially kicked me out. I am working for near minimum wage, and very much still addicted to opiates and prescription stimulants.

Hopes for the future: I may yet turn my life around and go back to school next semester for pre-med (I am exceptionally intelligent, I do read the works of many philosophers which even scholars refer to as "difficult material). Maybe one day I will become a doctor and leave my dark past behind me, perhaps using it to guide those who are in similar situations towards recovery.

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