if you're looking for perfect then you're setting yourself up to fail, such a thing does not existQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
if you're looking for perfect then you're setting yourself up to fail, such a thing does not existQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
one time during my bender, I was laying in bed trying to time my breathes per minute to see if I was 'okay' to fall asleep without my breathing stopping, but I kept falling asleep after 10-15 seconds and had to keep resetting the stopwatch.. This went on for about half an hour until a burst of irritability and motivation came over me and I said "FUCK THIS" and jumped into the shower spraying freezing cold water on me and slammed a pot of coffee...
Trying to make the pot of coffee was another interesting adventure; I kept falling asleep while at the sink trying to wash a cup out, and would drop the cup back into a sink full of dirty water and would have to re-wash it again
maybe you're not cut out for this lifestyle, it sounds like a lot of work
have you ever woke up with your arm completely numb because you were laying in one position all night, too high to wake up and roll over, and then you wake up 15 hours later and say to yourself "Jesus christ, i'm still high"
thats so interesting
trying to stay awake to do those menial tasks was literally the most difficult thing i've had to do in the past 5 yearsQuote:
Originally Posted by maks
And you did it to yourself...Quote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
well i kept thinking to myself "i'm still not content with life, what can i do????? well, i guess i could try taking more drugs..." and this would go on to the point where i literally wasn't able to manage getting a pill in my mouth and swallowing it without dropping it on the floor and it turning in to a half-hour ordeal
still not as bad as my uncle; i got over to his house sometimes and pass the time by picking xanax out of his carpet
what you need is more interesting things to do when you're high... and if you have to monitor your breathing you're doing too much and overcomplicating things. this shit's supposed to be fun not work
i'm in bad withdrawals right now, this next 24 hours is going to be the hardest... luckily i have the day off and a 30 pack of keystone
spend the time reading up on fractal theory
i just don't know what to do, when i take two 30mg oxy instant release ( a dose that most people would find themselves in the ER after taking) and it doesnt even give me a flutter of opiate-esque effects, I have to either take more or just not do any at all... I developed a tolerance to the euphoria but not the sedative effects, which is a pickle to be in - because about 90mg got me waaay too sedated, but i needed 120-150 to feel any euphoria, so I would end up being so sedated I was incoherent but at least i was "kinda sorta" highQuote:
Originally Posted by maks
im literally on the edge of my seat reading about your degenerate drug adventures
the obvious answer is to move on to a different drug or find something else to keep you entertainedQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
youre just jealous that youre too anti-social and too much of a freak to get any readily available drug connectionsQuote:
Originally Posted by DrHundos
i have a readily available sex connection (your mom)
oxy was going to be my "one and only" though, it was going to be the one drug i could be content with forever. I wasn't expecting it to suddenly tell me "well, you've gone as far as you can go with me bro, sorry, time to move on to something stronger".Quote:
Originally Posted by maks
There's not much I can move on to - I could move on to methadone and just burn my opioid receptors out completely, or if I can manage to find dilaudid/hydromorphone that'll do me good for a while
maybe you should take a T break or move away from opiates altogether. If you're looking for euphoria there's always mdmaQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
pure mdma is very hard to find around here; you never know what kind of designer research chem youre going to wind up with. I'd much rather stick with pills i can ID and be sure of what i'm taking. That leaves me with opiates, benzos (yuck), and stimulants.
If I had some mushrooms I could perhaps change my perspective on things, other than that there is nothing thats going to stop me from being on the path i'm headed down other than some girl suddenly entering my life again who inspires me or a new connection to some wicked new opiate.
I'm getting my adderall in two weeks, and that usually changes my perspective for a while (some would say that phenethylamines like amphetamines are the "true" psychedelics), and i'll probably find some motivation in me to move on.
During the "moments of clairty" during my bender, I had aspirations to go to college again next semester, maybe that will come back to me, hopefully. Its become clear to me now that drugs just aren't offering what I thought I could find in them.
the head shop near me sells mushroom growing kits, you could probably find them near you or perhaps online
The Man doesn't want anyone to know this but you can eat any shroom you find growing on your land and get a buzz you just have to eat more than usual, im a doctor ive studied this
into the blue again when the money's gone
I'm seriously considering it. I feel that the only way for me to reconnect with the "me" I was when I was younger is through the use of strong psychedelicsQuote:
Originally Posted by maks
yeah hes jealous of your crippling drug addictionQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
I got more euphoria from mushrooms than any other drug I've done, but I prefer acid as a psychadelicQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
don't forget the L-TyrosineQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
also you should be taking 6-8 immodium, it's not just for shits it works on the opioid receptors in your gut
looking forward to seeing all this on a very special episode of intervention
im glad i was just committed instead of intervened
wait, aren't schedule ii's prescribed on a 30-day basis pretty much everywhere?Quote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
if it's two weeks until you can get more, does that mean that you burned through a month's worth of adderall in 16 days (or less)?
it's gonna be real hard not to do drugs for a few days
good thing i have all this beer
keystone's qualification as beer is questionable at best
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Originally Posted by Camoron
be thankful you weren't born a cripple and didn't have to go through sitting in class with loopylisa as your teacherQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
What a loser lmao
wtfQuote:
Originally Posted by Plug Drugs
this thread needs more fugly aussie bush pig with a brown cunt (lisa)
:swoon: ashley
wtfQuote:
Originally Posted by Camoron