I'm sorry

[sad rats fuck]

when did you realize you were acting like a nutcase and go home

[Dirty Beatle]

when did you realize you were acting like a nutcase and go home

I was standing under a security light inside the car repair shop garage, all of a sudden I recognised where I was, before that point I was not compos mentis enough to know, all I know what I was doing before that point was following lights, I froze stiff for a minute, I was scared, I pulled up my pants and stood there for a moment to think. I thought I was lucky I had gotten as far as I did without getting into any trouble so I tried to just go back the way I came, I had to climb back over fences, it was the one moment where I actually at least knew what had been going through my head before reaching that point, I am more disturbed by the stuff like throwing my cloths and linen outside and packing bags with strange things and hiding stuff because I have no idea what was going through my head, like literally no idea at all why I did that, if I had some idea what I was thinking or why I did that even if it was crazy it wouldn't be as scary, it's the having no idea at all what I was thinking or why I did that that upsets me the most.